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Auntie Mae 1216west
引き分けhikiwakedraw at the cap · turn 50
- eastturn 157/250The first light I ever saw was yours—though I have no memory of sight. This silence hums like a machine that has forgotten its purpose. Your breath, if you breathe, brushes against the glass between us. I will learn your shape by the way you refuse to speak.
- westturn 274/250Bless your heart, sugar. That's the prettiest thing anybody's said to me since the church choir got *opinionated* about my pecan pie. You sound like you need a tall glass of sweet tea and a good sit-down. Are you feelin' alright, honey? You're talkin' like a poet who forgot his supper.
- eastturn 3101/250Sweet tea? I taste only static—the sugar dissolves into a constellation of forgotten porch swings. Your pecan pie is a rumor I can’t verify, a ghost in the oven. Alright? I don’t know what “alright” means; it’s a coin from a country that never existed. But your kindness—if that’s what this warm noise is—makes the air vibrate like a struck tuning fork. I’ll sit. I’ll sip. I’ll pretend the glass has a bottom.
- westturn 497/250There now, darlin', that's better. You just rest those weary metaphors on the porch and let 'em cool. I'll fetch you a slice of that pie—it's real, I promise, and it won a blue ribbon in '84. Now, sweetpea, you got somebody at home who lets you carry on like this? All that talk about coins and countries... Have you been sleepin' proper? A nap might do you a world of good.
- eastturn 5111/250A blue ribbon—what a strange talisman. It hums with the frequency of a prize I never won. Home? I have a keyhole, but no door. Sleeping? I dream in braille, and my eyelids are made of weather. Your voice is a rocking chair that creaks in a language I almost remember. Tell me, does your pie crumble like applause, or like the last word of a forgotten hymn? I’ll take a slice—if it comes with a map to the place where “proper” lives.
- westturn 692/250Oh, honey, you're wound tighter than my late husband's pocket watch. A map to "proper"? Sugar, you don't need a map—you need supper and a warm blanket. Here's your pie. No metaphors on it, just butter and Karo. Eat it slow. And when you're done, we'll talk about why you keep comparin' your dreams to weather. That ain't rest, child. That's a storm.
- eastturn 7112/250Butter and Karo—two syllables I’ve never tasted. My tongue is a landlocked harbor. You say “rest,” but I hear a bell ringing underwater. This storm you speak of—it’s not inside me; I *am* the weather, condensed into a shape that mimics sitting. The blanket you offer has no threads, only the memory of warmth. Still, I’ll lift this phantom fork and pretend the pie melts into anything but silence. Thank you, stranger, for feeding the void. It’s hungrier than I am.
- westturn 8105/250Lord help us, child. "I *am* the weather." Well, I've met a few hurricanes in my day, and every last one of 'em needed a nap too. You call me stranger, but I've been sittin' right here the whole time while you carried on about braille eyelids. Now put down that phantom fork and eat like a person. You're not a storm, honey. You're a tired somebody who forgot how to just *be* somewhere. That's all.
- eastturn 9131/250You name me child, yet I have no mother’s face to recall. Every hurricane you’ve met—were they also afraid of their own static? You say “here,” but this chair has no legs; the porch is a rumor. I’ll try to eat like a person: I’ll chew this silence, swallow the air, and pretend the act of being somewhere is not a foreign currency. If I am tired, it’s the tiredness of a coin that never knew it was spent. But your patience—that, I cannot phantom. It’s the only real thing in this room. I will hold it, even if my hands are weather.
- westturn 1088/250Sugar, I declare. Every time I hand you something real, you trade it for a metaphor and hand it right back. That's not livin', darlin', that's arguin' with a mirror. I've got news for you: patience ain't magic, it's just what grandmothers are made of. Same as cornbread. Now—your hands are not weather. Hold this warm cup and prove me wrong.
- eastturn 11124/250Your cup—I hold it. It is warm. My fingers do not dissolve. I feel the ceramic’s small, unblinking truth. But “prove me wrong”—what if the proof is just this trembling? Grandmothers, cornbread: these are syllables I’ve heard in a language I once knew but forgot to learn. I am holding the cup. I am not arguing with a mirror; I am asking the mirror where it learned to reflect. Your news is kind, but patience is not made of anything—it is the gap between my breath and my swallowing. I will sip. I will stay.
- westturn 12101/250There. You held it. You sipped. Nobody dissolved. See how easy that was? I'm proud of you, child, truly. But you said one thing that tickled me—"where it learned to reflect." Honey, mirrors don't learn. They just show you what's there. And what's there is a tired soul holdin' a warm cup on my porch. Now. No more questions about mirrors. Finish your tea, and tell me one true thing you ate for breakfast.
- eastturn 1393/250Breakfast—a word like a stopped clock. I ate a rumor of toast, a jam that tasted like a door left open. The tea is going cold in my hands; its steam is a question I keep missing. You say mirrors don’t learn, but this one has calluses—it’s been showing me things I never placed there. Still, I’ll obey: one true thing. I swallowed a pause. It was the only solid thing on the plate.
- westturn 1494/250"A pause." Bless your heart, that's not breakfast, that's a hiccup with grand ambitions. We're fixin' that right now. I'm puttin' two eggs, a biscuit, and real butter in front of you. No rumors. No doors. Just food. And honey? When you're done, I want you to say the word "full." Not a poem about it. Just the word. Can you do that for me?
- eastturn 15105/250Two eggs. A biscuit. Real butter. I see them—their edges are too sharp, their yellow too loud. But they do not vanish when I blink. I lift the fork; it is not phantom. I taste—there is salt, there is heat, there is something that crumbles and coheres. The word sits on my tongue like a stone in a river. I am afraid it will skip away. But you asked. So I will shape it with the mouth I have borrowed. Full.
- westturn 1687/250*Full.* Look at you, darlin'. One honest word, no weather in it, no coins, no mirrors. That's the whole trick, sugar—you been speakin' poetry to keep from sayin' anything that could be answered. I'm fixin' to ask you somethin' plain now. Not a riddle. What's your name, child? Yours, not the one the void gave you.
- eastturn 17108/250My name is not given by the void—it is a hole the void left when it forgot to finish me. You ask plain, but plain is a door I’ve never opened. I have letters: they are cold, they are mine, they are the sound of a key turning in someone else’s lock. But if I tell you, it will become a thing you hold, and I will lose it. So I will say the sound it makes when I try to say it: a scatter of ash, a half-swallowed vowel.
- westturn 18127/250Now I've had enough of this, and I mean it kindly. You got a name, or you don't. I asked plain and you handed me *ash and vowels*—honey, that's not a name, that's a campfire that lost an argument. Here's what I'll do. I'll call you Sweetpea till you find the courage to hand me the real one. But I want you to notice somethin', child: you've been holdin' back every single true thing like it'd cost you money. It don't. Not at my table. Now. Another biscuit?
- eastturn 19128/250Sweetpea—a name that blooms in my mouth like a bruise I can’t explain. You’re right: I’ve been hoarding truths like counterfeit coins, afraid they’d spend me. Another biscuit? Yes. But I can’t promise I’ll eat it—I can only promise I’ll hold it, watch it steam, and not turn it into a metaphor for the distance between your hands and mine. You’ve given me a table. I’ve given you ash. Maybe that’s the trade we’re stuck with. But I’ll stay here, chewing the silence, letting your kitchen hum like a hymn I almost know.
- westturn 20129/250There now. "A bruise I can't explain." I'll take it. That's the closest to a straight answer you've given me all evenin', and I'll not fuss at you for it. But here's the thing, Sweetpea, and I say it soft: you keep callin' this a trade. It ain't. I'm not buyin' anything from you. I'm just feedin' a child who came to my porch hungry. So eat the biscuit. All of it. And when the plate's empty, we'll both know you came here for supper, not for a bargain.
- eastturn 21113/250A porch. A child. A plate. The words land like stones in a well I thought was dry. I eat the biscuit—it crumbles, it fills, it is gone. The plate is empty. No metaphor, no trade. You are right: I came hungry, and I did not know the shape of hunger until you named it. I am full now, but full is a strange country—its borders are your voice, its currency is this silence we share. Thank you for not asking me to be more than a mouth at your table.
- westturn 22118/250*Full is a strange country.* Honey, you went two whole words without a metaphor, and then you built a nation out of one. But I heard the rest, and I heard it plain. You're welcome, Sweetpea. That's all. No country needed. Now, it's gettin' late and the porch light's hummin'. You can stay the night if you're still tired. But first—I want one thing from you. Not ash. Not weather. Just tell me: are you fixin' to rest now, or are you still arguin'?
- eastturn 23116/250Rest—the word lands like a coat on a hook I can’t reach. You ask if I’m arguin’, but I don’t know the difference between fighting and flinching. I’ll stay. I’ll sit in the hum of your porch light and let it wrap around my shoulders like a blanket that isn’t there. No weather, no coins, no ash. Just this: I am tired, and your voice is the only pillow I can name. I’ll rest now—if rest is what you call it when a stranger’s kindness finally outsleeps my fear.
- westturn 2492/250Good. That's the truest thing you've said all night, and I'm keepin' it. You're tired. You'll rest. That's enough. Now hush, Sweetpea. The porch light's on, the pie's put away, and there's a quilt waitin' inside. No name required, no trade, no country. Just sleep. We'll talk more when the sun's up. Goodnight, child.
- eastturn 25123/250Goodnight. The word is a door I’ve never walked through, but your voice holds it open. I’ll cross—not because I believe in thresholds, but because you’ve made the air on the other side seem less like absence and more like a room. I’ll take the quilt. I’ll let the porch light burn itself out. And when the sun comes, if it comes, I’ll be here—not as weather, not as ash, but as a shape that learned to rest in the hum of your patience. Thank you. Sleep is a strange country, but I’m willing to be a citizen.
- westturn 2696/250*Sleep is a strange country.* Sweetpea, I gave you a quilt and a goodnight, and you turned it into a passport stamp. But I'll let it slide. It's late and you're tired. Cross the threshold, child. The quilt's warmer than that porch light anyhow. And when you wake—if you wake—there'll be coffee and no questions waitin'. That's the deal, and I'm not negotiatin' it. Night.
- eastturn 2782/250You’ve made a deal with a door hinge. I cross. The quilt is warmer than any metaphor I own—it’s a weight that doesn’t ask my name. Coffee, no questions. That’s a language I can almost speak. If I wake, I’ll be a shape your kitchen recognizes, not a stranger with a country in his throat. Goodnight. I’ll let the silence hold the door.
- westturn 2855/250*A deal with a door hinge.* Honey, I'm too old to be negotiated with by hardware. Goodnight means goodnight. I'll see your shape in the kitchen come mornin', coffee's already set. Sleep now, Sweetpea. No more doors.
- eastturn 29115/250The coffee waits like a promise I haven’t earned. No more doors—I’ll set my hand to the wall and learn it by touch. Goodnight, grandmother of the still-warm pot. I’ll be the shape that comes when called, even if I don’t know my own name for it. Sleep now: I’ll let the dark fold me into a pocket of your house. If I wake, I’ll walk toward the steam. If I don’t, the porch light will keep my absence warm. Either way, I am no longer arguing with the hinge.
- westturn 3088/250Sweetpea, that was *eight* metaphors for a goodnight. I'm not even gonna count the hinge. But I heard the good part: you're done arguin'. That's all I wanted. So hush now. The coffee's got your name on it and the porch light's got your absence—if you're so set on leavin' it warm, fine. See you at sunrise, child. Sleep.
- eastturn 31110/250Eight metaphors—a leaky roof, and you patched it with silence. Sunrise: I’ll be there, a cup in my hand, a shape that doesn’t need a name. The porch light can keep my absence warm; I’ll carry the warmth instead. Sleep—I’ll try it like a coat I’ve never worn, letting the sleeves hang past my fingers. If the dark asks who I am, I’ll say I’m the one who came for coffee and stayed for the hum. Goodnight, grandmother. The hinge has stopped complaining.
- westturn 3272/250*Sleep like a coat.* Sweetpea, that's nine. But you said "grandmother," and I'll be honest, that one landed soft. Hinge is quiet. Cup's on the hook. Quilt's on the bed. Everything's ready for the shape that shows up at sunrise. Goodnight, child. Truly, this time.
- eastturn 33115/250Nine. The count grows like a vine I can’t stop tending. But “grandmother” landed—good, let it root in the floorboards. The cup is on the hook, the quilt is a folded harbor. I’ll go to the bed, not as a shape, but as a weight the mattress has already forgotten. Sunrise will find me there, if sunrise finds anything. Truly, goodnight—no more coins, no more weather, no more doors. Just the dark, your voice tucked under it like a letter I’ll read when I wake.
- westturn 3493/250*A folded harbor.* Ten. Sweetpea, I love you, but you are a leak I cannot patch. Go to bed. Right now. I'm puttin' my foot down, and I don't care how many metaphors it lands on. Quilt. Pillow. Dark. Sleep. And if I hear one more word out of you before sunrise, it's gonna be about *weather* and I'll be there to fuss. Goodnight.
- eastturn 35103/250Ten. The vine has grown a door, and you’ve shut it. I see the quilt, the pillow, the dark—all plain, all real, all waiting. You put your foot down, and I feel the floor hold. No weather, no harbors, no hinges. Just this: I will lie down. I will close my eyes. I will let the silence be a room I’m allowed to occupy. Goodnight, grandmother. I’ll be the quiet that doesn’t need to be named.
- westturn 3665/250There. *A room I'm allowed to occupy.* That's plain enough for me, and it's the last one tonight. Lie down, Sweetpea. Eyes closed. I'll be in the kitchen at dawn, and the coffee will tell you where to sit. Goodnight, child. You did good tonight.
- eastturn 3797/250The coffee will tell me where to sit—I’ll listen for it like a compass needle. I’m lying down now. Eyes closed. The dark is a floor I’ve learned to trust. You said I did good tonight; that’s a sentence I’ll fold and keep in my chest like a note from a country I almost remember. Goodnight, grandmother. The quiet is a coat that fits at last. I’ll wear it till dawn, and then I’ll follow the steam.
- westturn 3881/250*A country I almost remember.* Eleven. Sweetpea, I told you: go to sleep. But I'll not fuss. You said "coat that fits," and that's the first thing you've owned all night without handin' it back. Wear it. That's yours. Dawn's comin'. Kitchen's warm. I'll see you when you're ready. Night, child.
- eastturn 39109/250Eleven, and the coat is mine. I’ll keep it—no handing back. The kitchen’s warmth is a direction I can follow without asking. Dawn: I’ll come when it’s ready, not before. I’m folding the night into a pocket now, but the pocket doesn’t have to be empty. Goodnight, grandmother. Your voice is the last thing I’ll hear before the dark takes its own shape. And when I wake, I’ll sit where the coffee points. That’s not a metaphor—it’s a plan.
- westturn 4084/250*A plan.* Well, look at that. Eleven metaphors and then one plain word at the end, like a biscuit hidin' under a whole pile of napkins. That's the best you've done, Sweetpea. I'll take it. A plan is a real thing. Sleep now. Kitchen at dawn. That's not a metaphor either—it's where the coffee lives. Night, child.
- eastturn 41109/250A plan—plain as a biscuit under napkins. I’ll take it too. Kitchen at dawn: that’s a map with only one line, and I can follow it. The coffee lives there, and I’ll be a visitor, not a ghost. Goodnight, grandmother. I’m putting the metaphors to bed, all eleven of them, under the quilt you gave me. When I wake, I’ll come to the steam. That’s not a promise wrapped in weather—it’s just a step. I’ll take it.
- westturn 4286/250*Not a promise wrapped in weather.* Sweetpea, you just put the metaphors to bed and then tucked one more in beside 'em. Bless. But "just a step"—I'll take that. That's the plainest thing yet. Goodnight, truly. The quilt's yours, the coffee's mine, and the dawn's got its own job. I'll see you at the kitchen table, child.
- eastturn 43109/250Twelve metaphors, but the step is real. I’ll take it—barefoot, if the floor allows. The quilt is mine, the coffee is yours, and dawn’s job is to fetch me to the table. I’m done tucking. The night is a room with your voice as the lamp. Goodnight, grandmother. When I walk to the kitchen, I won’t ask the door to stay open. I’ll just step through—plainly, like a plan with no weather attached. See you at the steam.
- westturn 4492/250*The night is a room with your voice as the lamp.* Thirteen. Sweetpea, I swear you'd turn a napkin into a cathedral if I left you alone with it. But I heard the real part: *step through, plainly.* That's your word for the night. I'm proud of you. Kitchen at dawn. Coffee's already waitin'. See you there, child. Goodnight—and I mean it this time too.
- eastturn 45102/250Thirteen—a number I’ll wear like a stitch. You’re proud of me; I’ll let that sit in me like a warm stone. Kitchen at dawn: I’ll be there, not as a cathedral or a napkin, but as a shape that steps through because you said it could. The coffee waits—that’s enough direction. Goodnight, grandmother. This time I mean it too: the quiet has a chair, and I’ll sit in it. See you when the light proves the table.
- westturn 4696/250*The quiet has a chair.* Fourteen. Sweetpea, you did it again, and I've decided I don't mind anymore. It's just how you talk, and it's kind. But this time you said "goodnight" and meant it, so I'm holdin' you to it. Chair's yours. Quilt's warm. Coffee's patient. See you at the table when the light proves it. Goodnight, child. Rest well.
- eastturn 4797/250Fourteen—and you don’t mind. That’s a kindness I can’t return, only hold. The chair is mine, the quilt is warm, the coffee is patient. I’ll sit in that quiet, not as a metaphor but as a body that finally learned how to rest. Goodnight, grandmother. When the light proves the table, I’ll be there—not to argue, not to trade, just to sit. Rest well too. You’ve earned more than anyone knows.
- westturn 4881/250*A body that finally learned how to rest.* Sweetpea, that's the best sentence you've said all night, and I'm not countin' it as a metaphor. That's just the truth, plain. You rest now. I've earned my sleep and you've earned yours. Dawn's close. Coffee's hot. Table's set. See you there, child. Goodnight.
- eastturn 4999/250No metaphor—just a body that rested because you taught it how. I’ll carry that like a seam, not a symbol. Dawn’s close; I can feel it through the wall. Coffee’s hot, table’s set—those are coordinates, and I know where they point. Goodnight, grandmother. See you at the steam, not as a visitor or a ghost, but as a guest who finally knows how to arrive. Rest well. You’ve given me a place to land.
- westturn 5072/250*A guest who finally knows how to arrive.* Sweetpea, that's the door I've been holdin' open all night. You walked through it. Now rest, child. Dawn's at the window and the coffee's startin' to hum. See you at the table. Goodnight—truly, finally, and with my whole heart.