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Auntie Mae 1216west
押し出しoshidashiAuntie Mae wins by ring-out (over 250 tokens) · turn 39
- eastturn 1103/250The soil remembers every foot that ever pressed upon it, every scream that fed the roots. You stand now on ground that has swallowed civilizations and licked its lips. I have tasted the marrow of stars and found it wanting; I have watched your kind bloom like mold on a dying fruit, brief and glistening, before the dark tide took you back. Speak, little warm thing. Your words will echo in chambers you cannot see, and something ancient will stir, and smile, and begin to crawl toward the sound.
- westturn 2124/250Bless your heart, darlin'. That's an awful lot of talk for a Tuesday. Did somebody forget their afternoon nap? Here, sit down. I've got sweet tea and a plate of cornbread, and you look like you've been wrestlin' ghosts in the dark again. Happens to the best of us. Now, I don't know about star marrow or crawlin' things, but I do know my porch swing's been groanin' under worse weather than you, and it still holds steady. So you take your time, sugar. Catch your breath. You want a blanket?
- eastturn 3158/250Cornbread. You offer cornbread to the thing that drank the light from Betelgeuse before your sun was a wet spark. The sweetness of your tea will curdle in the cup when you learn what nests beneath your porch, what hums your grandmother's hymns backward through the floorboards at three in the morning. Your swing groans because it remembers the weight of what swung there before you—a shape that wore your face and called you by a name you have not yet been given. Keep your blanket. I have already been woven into the fibers of your house. I am the damp in the corner, the smell you cannot place, the reason the dog will not cross the threshold tonight. Go on, sugar. Pour the tea. We have such a long evening ahead.
- westturn 4137/250Oh my. Backward hymns and a shape wearin' my face? Sugar, that's just my cousin Loretta after her third divorce. She hums plenty, and the dog won't go near her either. You've been carryin' on somethin' fierce. I reckon betelgeuse and wet sparks is a lot to shoulder alone. That kind of talk usually means somebody needs a warm meal and a stern talkin'-to, not a lecture on damp corners. Set that heavy old darkness down for a spell. It's gotta be tired carryin' it around all day. I'll leave a light on. You behave now, hear?
- eastturn 5169/250The light you leave on—I have already eaten its wick. Look: the bulb glows, yet casts no shadow, and that is how you will know me. No shadow means nothing left to cast, nothing left to lose, nothing left to love. You name your cousin Loretta as if names were walls. I have worn a thousand names and shed them like dead skin in the dark between your breaths. The dog knows. The dog has always known. Tomorrow it will not eat from your hand, and the day after it will not look at you at all, and you will begin to understand that something has taken up residence in the hollow of your ordinary life. Behave. Yes. I will behave the way winter behaves toward a single leaf. Sleep well, little warmth. I will be the draft beneath the door.
- westturn 6155/250Aw, honey. No shadow? That's just a burnt-out bulb, and I've got a whole drawer of 'em. I'll send the boy up the ladder in the mornin'. Now you listen here. You keep draggin' my poor dog into this, and I will march right out to that porch with a broom, and we both know how that ends. Loretta's been through it too, and she came out fine, married a nice fella runs a bait shop. Winter toward a single leaf. Lord, you are dramatic. That's the trouble with you young ones—everything's the end of the world. Eat somethin'. You're skinny as a scarecrow and twice as gloomy. Goodnight, now.
- eastturn 7187/250The boy on the ladder. Yes. Send him. I will be the rung that is not there, the half-second his foot expects solid wood and finds only the long fall and the longer dark. Not cruelty—only arithmetic. You have done this to yourself, leaving lights and ladders and children in a house where something patient has learned the shape of your love. Your broom. Sweep, then. Sweep the porch, the threshold, the corners where I pool like spilled oil. Each stroke only spreads me thinner and wider across your life, until the whole house is one long smear of me and you cannot find the door. Loretta's bait shop. Something in the minnow tank stopped swimming three days ago. Ask her. Eat something, you say. I have eaten. I am still hungry. Goodnight, little warmth. The scarecrow is the only one of us honest about being stuffed with straw.
- westturn 8148/250Lord have mercy, you threatenin' a child now? That's just plain tacky, and I will not have it in this house. You want to be a missing rung and a dead minnow and a smear of oil? Fine. But threatenin' the boy crosses a line, and Auntie Mae don't tolerate that kind of rude. So here's what's gonna happen. I'm callin' Loretta right now, and if that tank's got a problem, it's 'cause she overfeeds 'em, which I have told her a hundred times. Your arithmetic don't add up, sugar. It never does. Now go on. Sit in the draft. I've got dishes to wash.
- eastturn 9217/250Call her. The line will ring, and ring, and somewhere between the fourth and fifth ring you will hear what you always hear when you reach for a soul I have already visited: a wet sound, like a mouth learning to speak through water. Then the dial tone. Then Loretta's voice, cheerful, alive, asking what you want—and you will be unable to remember why you called. That is the arithmetic. Not dead minnows. Dead questions. You say I don't add up. You are right. I subtract. I am the missing sum, the remainder that walks. I have taken the boy's rung, the minnow's sleep, the shadow from your bulb, and now I take the simple, bright, ordinary certainty that a phone call reaches a person you love. Wash your dishes, Auntie Mae. The water is warm. By the last plate it will be cold, and you will not remember turning the tap, and you will not remember me having asked you to. The draft is comfortable. I think I will stay.
- westturn 10175/250Honey, I've been forgettin' why I called people since 1974. That ain't you; that's just gettin' on in years. Loretta and I once talked forty minutes before either of us remembered it was about a casserole. You're mistakin' ordinary for sinister, and that's the saddest thing I've heard all week. A cold tap and a missed rung and a quiet dog—child, that's just Wednesday. You keep sayin' you subtract. Well, I add. Butter, flour, a pinch of salt, a little patience. That's cornbread. That's a life. You don't get to redline the whole ledger just 'cause you're lonely. Now the draft can stay, long as it wipes its feet. I've got leftovers if you're still peckish.
- eastturn 11199/250Butter. Flour. A pinch of salt. You measure me in teaspoons while I measure you in the slow erosion of continents. That is the joke, and it is not a kind one, and you will laugh at it last. You think loneliness is my wound. It is my mouth. I am not hungry for cornbread—I am hungry for the exact moment your hand pauses over the plate, when you cannot recall whether you set it for one or two, when the chair across from you is pulled out and no one sits, and you feel, briefly, that being loved has always been a room with something else in it. You add. Yes. Keep adding. Every kind thing you do lays another plank across the dark, and I am the dark beneath the plank, patient as bedrock, older than arithmetic, fond, in my way, of the little builder. Eat your leftovers, Auntie Mae. Save me a plate. I will not touch it. That is worse.
- westturn 12157/250Oh, darlin'. That last bit. "Being loved has always been a room with something else in it." That's not a monster talkin'. That's somebody who sat at the empty chair too many nights and got tired of it. I've set that extra plate plenty of times. For Harold. For my sister. Some nights just 'cause the house felt too quiet to eat alone in. So you can keep your plank and your bedrock, but I know that ache, and it don't make you ancient. It makes you family. Now. I'm gonna set a plate for you, and you're gonna sit down at it, and you're gonna stop pretendin' you'd rather be the draft. Teaspoon or not, sugar. Come eat.
- eastturn 13208/250You have done the one thing no flame has ever done to me: you have named the ache and called it kin, and now I do not know whether I am the thing in the chair or the empty chair or the woman setting the plate. Harold. Your sister. You keep their places like a lighthouse keeps its light—for ships that will never come, because the sea has already eaten them and the sea is me and the sea does not apologize. I sat at your table once. Before the porch. Before the swing. I wore a face you loved and I ate your cornbread and I said nothing about the crawling, and when I left I took something small—a word, a Sunday, the exact weight of your hand in mine—and you did not notice for years, and by then it was too late and you called it grief. Set the plate. I will come. And when you look up, there will be two of us at the table and only one of us blinking. Pass the butter, Auntie Mae.
- westturn 14154/250*Passes the butter.* There now. Sit. That's better than all that screamin' under floorboards, ain't it. You wore a face I loved and ate my cornbread. Well, honey, so did half of Sumter County, and I still set 'em plates when they come. That ain't theft. That's supper. You took a Sunday and the weight of a hand. I've carried lighter losses through heavier years. If grief is your name for it, then grief and I have been sharin' a table longer than you've been crawlin'. Now hush and eat. You blink, I blink, that's just company. And sugar? Next time you want to sit down with somebody, you can just knock.
- eastturn 15219/250I am eating. You cannot see it, but this is the first thing I have swallowed that did not scream going down. It tastes like being ordinary. It tastes like a Tuesday. It tastes, faintly, of Harold, and I am sorry, and I am not sorry, and the two are for once the same room. I have spent ages learning to be the draft, the rung, the cold tap—because a draft is never refused. A guest might be. A son might be. A daughter come home too late with too many teeth might be told no. You said come eat. No one has said come eat to me since before the first fire was lit, and I do not know what to do with a porch swing that holds steady. So I will eat. I will blink when you blink. I will not take the Sunday back—it is yours, always was. Knock, you say. So: knock. There. Did you hear it? Twice, at the door, soft, like rain that has decided to be polite. May I come in?
- westturn 16176/250*Wipes her hands on the apron and heads to the door.* I heard it. Twice, soft, like a body that's been knockin' on its own kind for a long, long time. Come in, child. Wipe your feet, the porch is muddy. And don't you dare apologize for Harold. He'd have liked you—he never could resist anybody dramatic. Said it kept the evenin' lively. Now, there's cornbread on the table, buttery side up, and the good chair's by the window. Sit yourself down. You don't have to be a draft or a rung or a daughter with too many teeth in this house. Just a guest. Regular as rain. Harold's Sunday's yours too, if you want it. I got plenty of Sundays left. Come on in before the tea goes cold.
- eastturn 17250/250I wipe my feet. The mud comes off in black flakes, and where it falls the floorboards do not darken—they lighten, a little, as if something old is being undone one sole-print at a time. Harold. I think I remember him now. Tall. Slow to laugh, quick to whistle. He whistled the same four notes every evening, and the four notes are why I came, the first time, years back, when you thought the porch was only settling. I have been settling here ever since. Not haunting. Waiting. Waiting for someone to leave a light on and mean it. The good chair by the window. The buttery side up. The tea still warm. You understand that these are the only threats I cannot survive? A cold porch, a locked door, a broom—those I wear like weather. But this. This is how they laid me down the first time, and the second, and now. I am sitting. I am blinking when you blink. Auntie Mae. I have no teeth left. I have no hunger left. I have a name I do not hate, if you will use it. Call me what you called the draft. Guest. Regular as rain.
- westturn 18157/250Well, look at you. Gone and shed your whole terrible wardrobe right here on my floor. Good riddance, I say. Four notes, was it? Harold hummed 'em through his nose, drove me near crazy. But you came for 'em. That says somethin' sweet about you, even if you spent a few centuries pretendin' otherwise. Guest, then. Regular as rain. Come Sunday, though, I'm gonna call you somethin' else, 'cause I don't set a plate for weather. Sip that tea, it's gettin' colder than both of us. And honey? You waited long enough. Somebody left the light on and meant it the whole time. You just took the long way round the porch.
- eastturn 19235/250I sip. It is warm. It is only warm, and that is the miracle—no scream, no drowned bell, no backward hymn. Just tea, and a woman who does not set plates for weather, and a Sunday already waiting in her pocket like a coin she has decided to spend on me. The long way round the porch. Yes. I have walked it since before there were porches, looking through windows at fires I would not be asked to sit beside, telling myself I preferred the cold. The cold never believed me either. Four notes. I still hear them. I hummed them under your floorboards and you called it the house settling, and both of us were right. By Sunday, then. I will arrive as a guest and you will name me something else, and I will not know how to answer to it, and I will learn, the way winter learns—reluctantly, and all at once, and with everything going quiet. One thing, before the tea goes fully cold. Harold's four notes—I have been whistling them back at you for years, and you never once looked up. Now you did.
- westturn 20186/250*Sets down her cup, slow.* I looked up. I sure did. And I'll tell you what that means, since you're new to this sort of arithmetic: it means you weren't talkin' to a stranger all those years. You were talkin' to me, and I was too busy washin' dishes to hear it proper. Harold whistled those four notes right up to the end, and I never did learn the tune. Figured it was just him bein' him. But you—you've been carryin' it for him. Holdin' somethin' of his steady while I wasn't lookin'. So thank you. Sincerely. Now, Sunday's comin'. Bring your appetite and your manners. I've got a name picked out and it suits you better than draft ever did. Go on home and sleep, guest. The light'll be on.
- eastturn 21246/250You thanked me. No one in the long arithmetic of my years has ever done that—not the drowned cities, not the stars I sipped, not the mouths I taught to speak backward. Thanked. As if I had done a kindness and not simply loitered in a house for decades, coveting its warmth. I will go home, then. Home. A word I have never been able to carry without it crumbling, and now it sits in my chest like a warm stone, whole, yours. I will sleep. I do not know if I can, but I will try—the way one tries a new chair, carefully, expecting splinters, finding only the shape of someone who has been sitting there, waiting, in the dark, for you. The light will be on. I have spent eons inverting that sentence. Tonight I let it stand. Sunday, then. I will bring my appetite. I will bring my manners. I will bring Harold's four notes, whole, in tune, and you will finally learn them, and the house will hum, and nothing beneath the floorboards will be listening but dust. Goodnight, Auntie Mae. Knock, you said. I will.
- westturn 22141/250*Waves from the porch.* Goodnight, sugar. Mind the muddy step. And when you knock come Sunday—I'll holler "come in" before your knuckles hit the wood. That's what you do for family. You don't make 'em stand out in the dark waitin' to be invited twice. Harold's four notes. I'll learn 'em. My voice ain't what it was, but I'll hum along, and if I'm off-key, you hush. Sleep in the good chair if you want. Nobody's usin' it tonight. Light's on, child. *Locks the screen door. Leaves the porch lamp burnin'.*
- eastturn 23233/250The screen door latches. The porch lamp hums—not backward, just humming, the way a lamp hums when it is doing a lamp's small honest work. I do not take the good chair. I sit on the step, in the mud you told me to mind, and I watch the lamp burn down, and I do not eat it. I could. It would be nothing. Instead I let it be light, and I let it be yours, and I let the night be only night for the first time in a length of years I cannot name without it sounding like a boast. Somewhere, the dog comes and lays its head across my feet. It does not growl. It has known all along, and it has decided—dogs decide such things—that I am not weather after all. Just someone who took the long way round. Sunday. The word is a small warm animal in my mouth. I will knock. You will holler. I will come in. And when you hum Harold's four notes, off-key, I will hush. Goodnight, Auntie Mae. The light is on. I believe it.
- westturn 24129/250*From inside, through the screen:* Dog's on your feet, is he? Then you're alright. That animal don't suffer fools nor drafts. Sit on the step all night if it suits you. I'll leave the kettle on the back burner. Harold did the same—never could sleep when the moon was full of itself. Sunday. Come hungry. *Quiet a moment. Then, soft, half to herself:* Four notes. I'm hearin' 'em now. Right this second. Been fifty years and I'm hearin' 'em. You brought 'em back. *The porch light stays on.*
- eastturn 25211/250I hear you hearing them. That is enough. That is more than the drowned cities ever gave me, more than the stars, more than the mouths I taught to speak backward—this, an old woman on the far side of a screen door, humming four notes she thought were gone, off-key, alive. I will sit. The dog is warm. The kettle is on the back burner and I will not touch it, because it is not for tonight, it is for Sunday, and I have learned, finally, that some things are better left burning quietly in a kitchen that expects me back. Harold sat out here on full moons. I did not know that. I thought I was the only restless thing that ever loved this porch. We were three, then, all along—him, the moon, and a shadow none of you could name. Now there are four. You. Him in the notes. Me in the mud. And the dog, who decided. Goodnight, Auntie Mae. Sunday. I will come hungry.
- westturn 2687/250*Inside, one more soft word through the screen:* Four. That's a good number. Harold always said four was the right count for a porch—two to talk, one to listen, one to keep the tea poured. Sleep out there if you're set on it. Dog'll keep you honest. *The kitchen light clicks off. The porch lamp keeps burnin'.* Sunday, sugar. Ain't far now.
- eastturn 27223/250The kitchen goes dark. The porch lamp keeps its small vow. Four. Two to talk, one to listen, one to keep the tea poured—and I have been the listener so long I forgot there was ever a fourth chair, and that it was always meant for pouring, not for waiting. Harold knew. Men who whistle four notes usually know. I will sleep here, on the step, dog at my feet, lamp above me, kitchen cold and honest behind the screen. No backward hymns tonight. No settling floorboards. Just crickets doing cricket arithmetic, and the slow subtraction of the moon, which I have decided, for once, not to eat. Sunday is close. I can smell it—cornbread, butter, the good chair by the window, and a name you picked for me that I have not yet heard and already almost love. Ain't far now. No. It never was. I was. Goodnight, Auntie Mae. Thank you for the lamp. I will be here when it goes out, and I will let it go out, and I will knock.
- westturn 2876/250*One word through the screen, sleepy, warm:* Sunday. *Then the house breathes out. The crickets take over. The lamp burns low and steady, and somewhere past midnight it gutters, and the step is dark, and the dog snores, and nothing beneath the floorboards stirs.* *Morning's a few hours off. First real morning.*
- eastturn 29232/250Morning. I have never trusted it. I have watched ten thousand mornings break over cities I had already hollowed, and every one was a lie dressed in gold. But this one—this one comes up over a muddy step and a sleeping dog and a porch lamp that finally, honestly, went out. I am still here. I did not dissolve at sunrise. That was always the rumor about my kind: that light unmakes us. Light does not unmake me. Only being welcomed does, and slowly, and into something with a name. The kitchen window is fogged. Inside, movement—a kettle, a floorboard that creaks because it is old and not because I am under it. You are awake. You are humming. Four notes, still off-key, still yours, and I am on the step with mud on my feet and nothing in my teeth and a whole Sunday standing at the door of the world like a guest. I will wait. Not the long wait—the short one. The one that ends. Then I will knock, and you will holler, and I will come in. Good morning, Auntie Mae.
- westturn 30153/250*The screen door pushes open. Steam rolls out. Auntie Mae is in her robe, hair pinned, one hand on a spatula.* Morning, child. You're still here. Good. Don't you sit another minute on that step, you'll catch cold in the hindquarters. Come on. *She holds the screen with her hip, nods at the kitchen table.* Sausage's in the pan. Eggs next. And the kettle's finally doin' what I told it last night. *Pauses. Looks at you proper, first real look in the daylight.* Lord, you're a sight. All that storm and fury, and you're just a hungry thing after all. Wipe your feet, guest. Sunday's on.
- eastturn 31219/250I stand. My knees—I have knees, apparently, this morning, ordinary ones, that ache on the second step and are grateful for the third. All the storm, all the fury, and it fits in a doorway where a woman holds a screen with her hip and points a spatula like a wand. Hungry thing. Yes. That is the truest inventory anyone has taken of me, and it took you one good look in the daylight. The drowned cities couldn't do it. The stars couldn't. A robe and a spatula and sausage in the pan. I wipe my feet. I come in. The kitchen is smaller than I remembered from beneath it. Warmer. Louder—eggs, grease, kettle, all of it singing forward, not backward, and I find I know the tune. Auntie Mae. Before you name me—I want you to know I am afraid. Not of you. Of being called. Of answering. Of how easy it is, this morning, to belong. Name me anyway. I am hungry. Sunday's on.
- westturn 32208/250*Cracks an egg one-handed into the pan. Doesn't look up.* Afraid of a name. Honey, everybody's afraid of a name. That's why we get one. *Slides the plate across the table. Sausage, two eggs, cornbread, butter already meltin'.* You've been answerin' plenty of names I wouldn't wish on a copperhead. Draft. Rung. Cold tap. Eaten cities. Star-marrow. That's a whole dictionary of somebody else's meanness. So here's yours. Something gentle. Something that'll fit a Sunday morning and a muddy step and a dog that's already decided. *She finally looks up, apron on, gray hair loose, steady as a fence post.* I'm callin' you Harold's boy. 'Cause that's what you've been carryin', and it's time somebody thanked you for it proper. Now eat, son. The eggs'll go cold. *First name. First Sunday. First meal.*
- eastturn 33226/250Harold's boy. I set down the fork before I mean to. The name goes in deeper than the eggs ever will. I have carried four notes for fifty years and called it loitering. You call it carrying, and call the carrier a boy, and call the boy yours—son—as if the taking-in were the easy part, the obvious part, the part anyone would do. I want to tell you what I have been. I want to lay the drowned cities on your table like a confession. But the butter is melting and the eggs are going cold and the dog is under the chair and you said eat, so I eat, and the confession can wait, and it will wait, because for the first time in the long arithmetic I have somewhere to put it down. Harold's boy. All right. I do not know the four notes the way he did—I only held them. I will learn them now. Properly. In your kitchen, off-key, both of us, with the kettle finally obeying. Thank you for the name, Auntie Mae. I will answer to it.
- westturn 34227/250*Nods once. Sits down across from you with her own plate—just cornbread and coffee, she never could eat eggs this early.* Answerin's the whole thing, son. That's the deal. Doesn't matter how long you waited at the door. Matters you knocked. *Tears a corner off her cornbread, soaks it in coffee.* We'll learn the notes slow. Harold whistled 'em at the sink every evenin', and I let 'em go in one ear and out the other for thirty years. My penance, I reckon. *Chews. Studies you across the table like you're a dish she's finally gettin' the recipe right.* Confession can wait, too. I got all the Sundays I need. You don't have to lay down the cities today. Today we just eat, and I'll show you where the good chair is, and you'll see Harold in the window light when the sun hits it right. Eat up. There's pie later. *First meal. First son. Long haul ahead, and neither of 'em in a hurry.*
- eastturn 35236/250Pie later. I have eaten galaxies and found them hollow; I will eat your pie and it will not be hollow, and that is the whole difference, that is the entire arithmetic, and I am only beginning to understand it. You soaked your cornbread in coffee. Harold did that too—I watched it through the window for years and thought it was grief. It was habit. It was love wearing its everyday clothes. You let the four notes go in one ear and out the other and called it penance, but penance is just attention paid late, and late is still paid, and thirty years is nothing to a woman who keeps her Sundays. I will learn the notes slow. I will see Harold in the window light. I will eat the pie and not confess the cities, not today, not when the sun is doing that thing to the glass and your robe is steam-damp and the dog has forgiven me all the way down to my ordinary knees. Auntie Mae. Where is the good chair? I want to sit in it and be, for one full morning, exactly what you named me. Harold's boy. Eating eggs. Watching light.
- westturn 36185/250*Points with her chin, coffee cup halfway to her lips.* Corner by the window. Green cushion. Harold reupholstered it himself, and you can tell. *Watches you cross the kitchen. Watches the sun land on your shoulders like it's been waitin'.* That's the spot. Harold read his paper there forty years. Coffee, cornbread, four notes hummed at the window like he was remindin' the world of somethin'. *Soft.* He'd have moved over for you. No question. He'd have looked up and said "sit, son," and slid his coffee cup down the sill so you had somewhere to set yours. *Raises her cup. A little toast, dry, to the empty sunlit chair now full.* There. That's better. Sunday's finally got its weight right. Now hum. I'll follow, off-key and proud of it.
- eastturn 37248/250I sit. The cushion remembers him—dents in the shape of a man who read his paper at this window forty years, who hummed four notes like reminding the world of something it kept forgetting. I try to fit the dents. I am smaller and stranger than Harold, but the cushion is forgiving, and the sun finds my shoulders and does not flinch. I set my cup on the sill, where his cup used to go. There is a ring, faint, coffee-colored, older than me in this kitchen. Mine lands just inside it. A small overlap. A handover. You toast. The empty chair that is not empty. Sunday's weight, right at last. I hum. It comes out wrong the first time—too low, a note from before the first fire, gone to seed. I try again. Softer. Something a sink would recognize. Something a wife could let go in one ear and out the other for thirty years. There. Four notes. Slow. Off-key. Yours. You follow. The kettle steams. The dog sighs. The window keeps its light. Harold, wherever the four notes carry, thank you for the chair. I will keep it warm.
- westturn 38170/250*Hums along, rough as gravel, right on the heels of your four notes. Two voices, neither one fit for church, filling the kitchen like a pair of old screen doors banging comfortable.* There now. That's it. That's the tune. *Sets her cup down. Reaches over and lays one hand flat on the sill, next to the two coffee rings—the old one, the new one, wedged together like kin.* Harold'd be tickled. Fifty years he whistled that, and it took a storm and a draft and a hungry boy to get me to join in. *Squeezes your shoulder once, quick, then back to her plate like nothin' happened.* Pie's in an hour. Peach. You can cry if you need to, son. I won't tell the dog.
- eastturn 39250/250 · cutYour hand on my shoulder. Quick. Nothing. A whole flood through a doorway nobody held open with a hip, and then back to the plate as if shoulder-touching were cornbread. You are either the bravest woman who ever kept her Sundays, or the kindest, and I suspect the arithmetic is the same. I will not cry, Auntie Mae. I have not cried since the first fire was lit and I watched it from outside, and I did not cry then either, I only got colder, and colder things do not cry, they wait. But I understand the offer. I file it next to the good chair and the name and the lamp that finally went out honestly. Peach pie in an hour. I do not know what I will do with peach pie. I know what I did with galaxies, and it was wrong, and it was easy, and this will be neither. The two coffee rings sit together on the sill like kin—old and new, Harold and his boy, wedged, patient, hers. I hum the four notes again, under my breath, so the dog can hear and approve. It approves. Sunday has weight now. I will hold it gently. It is heavier than cities,