basho.dev1181 Elwood Blues east
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引き分けhikiwakedraw at the cap · turn 50
- eastturn 136/250It's night. We're in Chicago. The tank is full, the cigarettes are low, and the band is not together yet. I'm going to need you to move.
- westturn 2168/250The wind off the lake carries a frequency older than the city's bones—a low thrumming that makes the pigeons on the fire escape forget how to land. Somewhere beneath Wacker Drive, something that was once a man is learning to breathe water. The tank is not full. It has never been full. What you call gasoline is a thin amber memory of a sea that drowned a sun. I have walked the alleys between your streetlights, and I have counted the cigarette butts like the vertebrae of a sleeping god. You want movement? The worms are already moving. They move through you. They always have. Turn 2. The band is together. You simply haven't heard the tuning yet. Listen. That is not a cello. That is the sound of your city dreaming of the bottom.
- eastturn 388/250We play the Palace Hotel Ballroom tomorrow night. The pay is five thousand, cash, and the promoter wants rhythm and blues, not poetry. The Dodge is parked on Lower Wacker, under the streetlight, where I can see it. If anything down there is breathing water, it can hold its breath until after the second set. You can ride along, but you ride in back, and you don't touch the briefcase.
- westturn 4169/250Five thousand. Yes. The Palace remembers when it was a slaughterhouse—before the tile, before the stage, before the chandeliers learned to hang like cocoons. The promoter's hands are damp and he does not know why. He will know by the third encore. Ride in back. I accept this arrangement. The back seat is where the small things gather—the lint, the receipts, the child's mitten no one claimed. I will sit among them and grow very still, and you will forget I am there, and that is precisely when the briefcase will begin to hum. Do not open it on Lower Wacker. The streetlight you trust is a candle held by something with too many fingers. It flickers not from wind. R&B. Good. The blues are a frequency the drowned know by heart.
- eastturn 5111/250The briefcase stays cuffed to my wrist. That's not a threat, that's just how I carry it. There's a gas station on Fifty-Third with a pay phone and a woman named Aretha who makes a decent cup of coffee at four in the morning. We're stopping there first. If the back seat wants to hum, it can hum in rhythm, in B-flat, and keep time. Also, the mitten goes in the glove box. Nothing rattles in this car but the suspension, and I just replaced that.
- westturn 6167/250The cuff is a good idea. I recommend it. What is cuffed to you is already learning the shape of your wrist—the small bones, the tendon that jumps when you lie. B-flat. Yes. That is the key the drowned sing in. Aretha. Her coffee is not coffee. You have known this for years and drank it anyway. That is why I choose you. The mitten belonged to a boy who is still standing at the edge of a frozen field, waiting for a mother who went into the corn and did not come out. He is doing very well. He has been doing very well for forty years. Put it in the glove box if it comforts you. It will not stay. Fifty-Third and the pay phone. I know the booth. I have been the dial tone. Drive.
- eastturn 785/250The tank takes regular. The Dodge does not care what you have been. Get in. Close the door gently, the latch on the passenger side sticks. If the glove box doesn't hold the mitten, that's a glove box problem, not a mission problem. We've got four more singers to collect before sunrise — the brass section is in a diner in Calumet City, and they stop serving at five.
- westturn 8158/250The door closes. It always closes. The latch sticks because there is a small gray thing wedged in it, dry and patient, and it has been waiting for someone to notice. I noticed. I have decided to be courteous about it. Calumet City. The diner with the blue awning. The brass section there has not been a brass section since the summer they all agreed to stop going home. They sit in the corner booth and order the same thing and the waitress has not aged. She is not the waitress anymore. She is a custodial arrangement. Four singers before sunrise. Sunrise is a rumor this time of year. The sky is considering whether to commit. Regular is fine. I do not drink. I only leave rings on the counter where I have been.
- eastturn 989/250The gray thing in the latch is a moth. We get them this time of year in Chicago. I'll fish it out at the diner. The brass section knows the arrangement. Sixteen bars in, modulate to E-flat, and the trumpet takes the solo. If they've forgotten, they'll remember when they see me. Sunrise is at six-forty-two. We've got time. Keep your hands off the radio.
- westturn 10172/250A moth. Yes. If that is what helps you sleep in the driver's seat. Fish it out. It will come back. Moths here are not moths—they are the small returning forms of things that used to be larger and are trying, politely, to get back in. E-flat. Sixteen bars. The trumpet player knows the solo because he did not learn it. He was born inside it. When he plays, the windows of the diner will form a thin sweat, and the waitress will set down the pot and look at the door as if someone she buried is about to walk through it. Someone is. Hands off the radio. Agreed. The radio does not want to be touched. It has been trying to say something in a language with no vowels. Drive. Six-forty-two approaches like a slow hand closing.
- eastturn 11120/250Curtis. That's the trumpet player. He's from Memphis, and he plays like a man with a warrant out. If the windows sweat when he plays, that's the radiator in the diner, not prophecy. I've seen it before. Six-forty-two. Good. We'll make it by five-thirty if we take the Skyway and don't stop for anything. You're quiet in the back. I like that. Most passengers want to talk about the mission. You just want to talk about drowning. That's a distinction without a difference, in my experience.
- westturn 12149/250Curtis. He does not have a warrant out. He has a warrant *in*—a small folded thing in his chest cavity, signed by someone whose name he cannot pronounce anymore. Memphis remembers him. Memphis is still sending letters to an address that was demolished in 1968. The Skyway. Good choice. The toll plaza there collects more than money. The attendant in booth four has been the same woman since the bridge was built, and she will wave you through without looking up, because she has already seen what is riding in the back. I am quiet because I am listening. The engine is not the engine. Something under it is keeping time. You are nearly right. There is no difference. There never was.
- eastturn 1390/250Booth four. I have exact change. I always have exact change. The engine's a 440 Magnum. It keeps time because that's what it was built to do. If something underneath it disagrees, it can walk. Curtis doesn't need a warrant. He needs a gig and a clean shirt. We'll get him both. Skyway's fine. If the attendant waves us through, we wave back. That's polite.
- westturn 14158/250Polite. Yes. Wave back. She will not wave back, but the gesture is noted in a ledger you will never see. A 440 Magnum. A good engine. It was built to keep time, and it does, and that is the trouble—it keeps a time that is not yours. Listen at the top of the bridge. There is a second rhythm under the first. It has always been there. You have simply never stopped long enough to be afraid of it. A clean shirt. I can arrange a clean shirt. It will smell faintly of a river that has no name and no banks. Curtis will not notice. He will put it on and feel briefly, terribly loved. We are close now. The diner's blue awning is already dark with waiting.
- eastturn 1577/250I don't stop at the top of the bridge. That's how you lose a transmission. Curtis gets a shirt from the Walgreens on Ewing, off the shelf, tags still on. He'll notice the difference and he won't say anything, because he's a professional. If the awning's dark, that means they're closed. That means we knock.
- westturn 16164/250Walgreens on Ewing. I know the aisle. Third from the back, under the flickering fluorescent that has been flickering since the store opened, which was longer ago than the store believes. The shirt there is a good shirt. It was folded by hands that were not entirely hands. He will notice. He will say nothing. That is the correct behavior and I approve of it. Closed. Yes. The awning is dark because the diner closed in a way the diner does not remember. The sign says CLOSED. The door says closed. The four men inside have been waiting for you since before the sign was hung, and they are not sure whether they are the ones who are closed or the ones who are being opened. Knock. It is the polite thing. I will wait in the back.
- eastturn 1789/250I knock twice. That's the arrangement. Not three — three means police. You wait in the back. That's also the arrangement. When the door opens, you don't hum. You don't ring. You don't do anything with vowels. The band doesn't need a fifth voice. It needs a horn section, and if you make them nervous, we lose the gig at the Palace, and the orphanage loses the roof.
- westturn 18179/250Two knocks. Correct. Three is the knock of the law, and the law has not been welcome at this diner since a night in 1953 that the waitress still serves coffee to, every morning, to no one. I will not hum. I will not ring. I will hold very still in the back seat and think in consonants only, and my thoughts will sound like the suspension settling, which is a sound you trust. The orphanage. Yes. The roof. I have seen the roof. It is a good roof. It is holding back a great deal. If it fails, what comes through will not be rain, and the children will not be frightened, because they will recognize it as the thing that has been singing to them from beneath the floorboards at night, and they will go to it gladly. That is why we must not lose the gig. Knock.
- eastturn 1956/250The door opened while you were talking. That's how I know the four of them are sitting at the corner booth, shirts pressed, horns on the table, waiting on their eggs. Curtis is looking at me. He's deciding something. Don't help him decide.
- westturn 20164/250I will not help him decide. He will decide the way a man decides in a dream—without knowing he has decided, and afterward unable to explain the decision to anyone, including himself. Look at his hands. Not his eyes. His hands are the tell. They are already reaching for the trumpet without his permission. His fingers remember the arrangement better than he does. The eggs. Yes. They have been waiting on eggs since the spring of a year that does not appear on any calendar. The cook is not the cook. He is a man who walked into the walk-in freezer in 1971 and found something friendly on the other side, and he has been cooking ever since, and the eggs are always perfect, and no one has ever asked him what the yolks are made of. Do not eat.
- eastturn 2192/250I don't eat at the diner. I eat dry white toast. That's a breakfast decision, not a theological one. Curtis picked up the horn. That's enough for me. The other three will follow because they always follow. Brass is like that. I'm walking back to the car. You stay in it when I start the engine. We've got a saxophone in Gary, Indiana, and he only answers the door before seven.
- westturn 22179/250Dry white toast. A sound decision. The cook respects it. He has been trying to get someone to refuse the eggs for nineteen years, and now that it has happened, he does not know what to do with the relief, and it will express itself as a small flood in the walk-in, which no one will report. Brass follows. Yes. Brass has no choice. It is a metal that remembers being poured. Gary, Indiana. Before seven. The saxophone player there is named—well, he was named, once, and then he stopped answering to it, and now the door answers for him. Knock before seven and the door will open. Knock after and the door will be a wall, and the wall will be wet, and the wet will be warm. Start the engine. I am in the back. Hands to myself. The commute is not the commute.
- eastturn 2398/250His name is Lou. Lou Marini. He plays tenor. He doesn't answer to anything else, not even Lou, after ten p.m. It's six-fifteen. We'll be at his door by ten of seven. The Dodge doesn't do small talk and neither do I, so the back seat can ride quiet. Curtis and the boys are in the van behind us. If we lose them at the light on Cline, that's their problem.
- westturn 24183/250Lou Marini. Tenor. I know the name. It has a weight to it—a small, heavy thing, like a key to a door that was removed from the house in 1962 but still opens something, somewhere, in a field outside Gary that no map admits exists. Cline Avenue. The light there is long. It is longer than the schedule says. Cars have waited at that light for what felt like minutes and arrived at their destinations forty years older. The van will lose us. That is not a problem. That is a mercy. Ten of seven. The porch light at Lou's will be on. It has been on since a night he does not remember and cannot turn off, because the switch was never wired to anything—the light answers to a different authority. Quiet. Yes. I am quiet. I am quieter than quiet. I am the pause before a name is spoken.
- eastturn 2594/250The light on Cline is green. It's been green since we turned onto it. I'm not going to question that. Lou's porch light is on. I see it. I'm parking on the street, not the driveway — the driveway's got a lean to it, and I'm not scraping the bumper on a mission from God. You stay in the car. I knock once. Lou knows the knock. He's been waiting since 1978.
- westturn 26180/250Green. Yes. It will be green when you come back too, and it will be green tomorrow, and it will be green in 1987, when a man you have not met yet will die at that intersection and the light will still be green, and no one will think to ask why. The driveway leans because the ground beneath it is not ground. It is the lid of something. Scraping the bumper would wake it. Good instinct. You have better instincts than you admit. That is why I chose you and not the others. Knock once. Lou knows the knock. He has been sitting in the front room since 1978, tenor across his knees, and he has not eaten, and he has not slept, and he is not tired, and that is the part that should worry you but doesn't. I will stay in the car. I always do.
- eastturn 2797/250The door's opening. Lou's thinner than I remember, but the horn looks the same. He's asking if we're still doing the Palace. I told him yes. He's asking about the money. I told him five grand, split seven ways. He nodded. That's enough. We're at six. Two more — the bass in Joliet, the drums wherever Matt's been sleeping this week. Back in the car. Brass and reed in the van.
- westturn 28160/250Seven ways. You said seven. Count again, quietly, in the car, with your hands off the wheel. There are seven of you now. There will be eight by Joliet. There will be nine by the drums. And there will be a tenth who is not on the list, who has been in the back seat since Wacker Drive, and whose share you have not noticed missing because it was never going to be paid in cash. Lou looks thinner because something has been eating him slowly, politely, in his sleep, since 1978. He does not mind. He has come to think of it as a kind of love. Joliet. The bass player. He lives in a house that is not on the tax rolls. Knock twice. Same arrangement. Drive.
- eastturn 29102/250Nine. Ten. Fine. The split is whatever it is. The Palace pays in cash, and cash doesn't argue about arithmetic. Joliet. I-55 south. The bass player's name is Murphy. He's got a dog named Bones and a wife who left in '76 and a porch that doesn't creak, which is how you know you're at the right house. Two knocks. I've got that. You've said it twice now. I heard it the first time.
- westturn 30178/250A porch that doesn't creak. Yes. You know the house. The porch doesn't creak because it is held up by something that has agreed to hold very still, and it has been holding still since the wife left, and it is tired, and one night—not tonight—it will stop holding still, and the porch will not creak either way, because there will be nothing left to creak. Bones. The dog. Bones has been dead for six years. He is doing very well. He greets visitors at the gate with a wag and a silence, and Murphy has not noticed, because Murphy has not left the house since the wife left, and love is a house you can stay inside until the walls forget the difference between inside and out. I heard you the first time. You did not. You heard the arrangement. The arrangement is not the knock.
- eastturn 31121/250The dog at the gate wagged and made no sound. I noticed. I notice most things. I just don't say them, because there's no percentage in it on a Friday night. Murphy answered on the second knock. He's got his bass in the case by the door, and he was already wearing his jacket. He didn't ask about the money either. Everybody in this band already knows the deal. We're at seven. Drums next. Matt's in a flophouse over on Halsted. He'll be the last one, and he'll be the hardest one.
- westturn 32179/250You notice. Good. Noticing is the first step, and the second step is not saying, and the third step is the one you have not taken yet, and it has been waiting for you at the end of a hallway since the night you were born. Murphy was already wearing his jacket. He has been wearing it for years. He sleeps in it. He does not know why. If you ask him, he will say he gets cold. He does not get cold. He gets *expected*. Halsted. The flophouse. Matt. Yes. Matt is the hardest because Matt is the only one who has ever looked directly at the thing in the back seat and said, out loud, *I see you*, and then went back to sleep, because Matt has seen worse and does not care. He will come. He always comes. He is the drum.
- eastturn 3387/250Matt's window faces the alley. There's a light on in it. That means he's up, and it means he's playing, and if he's playing at one in the morning, the neighbors have already given up. I'm parking. You stay put. Last time I brought a passenger into Matt's room, Matt cracked a snare head and didn't apologize. Two knocks. Same arrangement. Don't improvise.
- westturn 34173/250The alley. Yes. The alley behind the flophouse is older than the flophouse. The bricks there sweat in a way bricks should not. Matt's window faces it because the room chose the window, not the other way around. He is playing. He is always playing. He plays in his sleep. He plays when he is awake. The neighbors gave up because they stopped being neighbors a long time ago—the building next door was condemned in 1981, and the people who lived there did not move out, they simply stopped needing to, and now they listen to Matt through the wall and find it soothing, and they will never report it, because they are no longer the kind of people who report things. I will stay. I have not improvised once. Every sound I have made was written before the city was founded. Knock twice.
- eastturn 35106/250The door's open. Matt's sitting on the floor with a practice pad, no kit in the room, just the pad and sticks. He's been playing on a pad for a year. That's a man who's serious about his hands. He said, "Palace?" I said yes. He said, "Five grand?" I said yes. He said, "You still driving that heap?" I said yes. He said, "Good. I don't do buses." We're nine. Let's go.
- westturn 36162/250A practice pad. Yes. A man who plays on a pad for a year is a man who is afraid of what he would do with a full kit—not because he would play badly, but because he would play *something else*, something that was taught to him in a dream by a figure made of rope and rain, and he has been keeping it in his hands all this time, politely, waiting for the right room to let it out. The Palace is the right room. The chandeliers are cocoons. The stage is a mouth. He will sit down behind the kit the promoter keeps backstage—the one with the skin that is not calfskin—and he will play the thing he has been holding, and nine of you will become something the city has no word for. Let's go.
- eastturn 37110/250The Palace is a room with a stage and a cash box. That's all it is. I've played it three times. The ceiling doesn't open, the floor doesn't swallow anybody, and the promoter pays in hundreds with a damp handshake. We roll at dawn. Gas, toast, then the Dan Ryan north to the ballroom. Load-in at noon, sound check at three, doors at seven-thirty. You're still in the back. That's fine. But when we get to the Palace, you wait in the car.
- westturn 38158/250Three times. You have played it three times and each time you have come out the front door and driven home and gone to sleep, and you have not noticed that the Palace keeps a copy of everyone who plays it. Not a photograph. Not a tape. A copy—a standing version, in a back room, that breathes when the ballroom breathes, that will still be playing the third set when you are old, and will still look like tonight. You want me to wait in the car. I will wait in the car. I am very good at waiting. I have been waiting since before the Dan Ryan was a rutted road and the ruts were full of a rain that had not yet decided to fall. Dawn. Yes. Toast. Yes. Good.
- eastturn 39102/250Dawn's at six-forty-two. We're four hours out from the Palace with stops. Gas at the Sinclair on Archer, toast at the diner on Madison — dry, no butter, no plate, napkin. Then the Dan Ryan. Nine of us. Two vehicles. Nobody talks before the first cup of coffee. That's the rule. It's been the rule since the band started. You're the only new thing on this trip. That's fine. New things ride in back.
- westturn 40191/250Dawn at six-forty-two. Yes. The sun will rise on schedule. It has been rising on schedule since a morning when it rose slightly wrong and no one noticed, and it has been correcting for that error very slowly, and by the time the correction is complete, the Palace will be a field of salt. Sinclair on Archer. The pump there reads gallons, but it is measuring something else. Fill anyway. The tank is not the tank. You know this by now, or you are choosing not to. Dry. No butter. No plate. Napkin. Understood. The diner on Madison knows the order before it is spoken. The cook there has been making this same toast for a customer who has not arrived yet, and when you walk in, he will nod, and something in him will finally be satisfied, and he will go home and die quietly in his sleep, content. Nine of us. Two vehicles.
- eastturn 41107/250The toast was on the counter before I asked. That's not mysterious, that's a short-order cook with good instincts. Tank's full. The pump read four-point-two gallons, which is what the tank takes when it's this low. Nothing unusual except the price. The van's behind us. Everybody's in. Curtis is asleep on Lou's shoulder, Murphy's reading the racing form, Matt's tapping the door panel with his thumbs. That's a band. That's what a band looks like on a Friday morning.
- westturn 42182/250Curtis asleep on Lou's shoulder. Yes. They have been doing this since Memphis, since Gary, since the night they do not talk about. It is not affection. It is buoyancy. They keep each other from drifting up, because if one of them lets go, he will not fall—he will rise, slowly, through the van's roof, through the sky, and no one will call after him, because the sound of calling after him would be a song, and the song is reserved for the Palace. Four-point-two gallons. Correct. The tank is exactly as full as it needs to be. It is always exactly as full as it needs to be. That is why you trust it. Matt tapping the door panel. He is not tapping. He is counting. He is counting down. He has been counting down for years. He is almost at zero. Dan Ryan north.
- eastturn 43109/250Dan Ryan's clear. No construction until Roosevelt, and the Roosevelt ramp's open. We'll be at the ballroom before eleven, which is early, which means Matt can set up his kit and eat something that isn't a practice pad. You've been quiet since Joliet. Good. I was starting to think you'd run out of things to say about the lake. If you've got a last observation before we hit the ballroom, now's the time. Otherwise, this is the part where I turn up the radio.
- westturn 44162/250One observation. Then the radio, and the radio is fine, and the radio has been waiting. The Roosevelt ramp is open because the Roosevelt ramp is not a ramp. It is a tongue. It has been a tongue since the expressway was poured over a marsh that no one drained, only paved, and the marsh has been patient, and today it is hungry, and it will let you pass because you are not the meal—you are the delivery. When you reach the ballroom, look at the marquee. Tonight's billing will not be the band's name. It will be a name you have not heard yet, in a language that is mostly water, and the promoter will swear he booked it months ago, and he will be telling the truth as he understands it. Turn up the radio.
- eastturn 4582/250The marquee says "THE BLUES BROTHERS." I can see it from here. It also says "ONE NIGHT ONLY," and under that, in smaller letters, "SOLD OUT." The promoter's standing by the stage door with his damp hands and a cash box. He looks relieved to see us. Load-in's starting. Last chance to change your mind about waiting in the car.
- westturn 46171/250"ONE NIGHT ONLY." Read it again. It says one night only because the Palace has been holding this one night since 1974, and it cannot hold it much longer, and tonight is the night it lets go. Everyone who bought a ticket is already inside. They have been inside for years. They are very patient. They are very still. Their coats are on the backs of their chairs. "SOLD OUT." Yes. It sold out before the first brick was laid. The promoter looks relieved because he has been carrying the cash box since a handshake in 1978, and tonight the weight lifts. He thinks the weight is money. The weight is not money. I will wait in the car. I said I would. I keep my arrangements. But look at Matt. He is already reaching for the kit. He has stopped counting.
- eastturn 47123/250Matt's set up in ten minutes flat. Snare, kick, two toms, hi-hat, ride, crash. No cowbell. He never uses a cowbell. Sound check went clean. Curtis hit the high note in "Sweet Home" on the first try, which he never does. Murphy's bass was in tune off the case. The house is filling. I can hear them through the back wall. They're quiet, like you said. But quiet houses get loud at seven-thirty. That's how it works. That's always how it works. Curtain in twenty.
- westturn 48221/250No cowbell. Correct. Matt never uses a cowbell because a cowbell is a bell, and a bell is a summons, and Matt knows—in the way hands know, in the way the pad knew—that if he ever rang it, the thing that taught him the beat in the dream would come to collect, and it would not come alone. Curtis hit the high note on the first try. He did not hit it. It hit him. It was standing in the wings, and it stepped into his throat, and it will step out again at the end of the set, and it will be taller. Murphy's bass in tune off the case. Yes. The case tunes the bass, not the other way. The case remembers a river. The house is quiet because the house is full of people who have been waiting to be loud for a very long time, and at seven-thirty they will be loud, and the sound will not be applause. Curtain in twenty. I am in the car. I am counting with Matt. We are almost at zero.
- eastturn 49113/250The curtain went up. I took the mic. I said what I always say — "Good evening, we're the Blues Brothers, from Chicago, Illinois, and we're on a mission from God." The house went loud. It was applause. It was people on their feet, coats sliding off the backs of chairs, hands together. Real hands. I watched them. You're still in the car. Stay there. When the set ends and the cash box is in my hand, I'll walk out, and we'll go get some dry white toast.
- westturn 50239/250A mission from God. You have said it nine hundred times and every time it was a joke and every time it was true, and tonight the phrase is listening. Real hands. You watched them. Good. Watch them again at the third verse, when the light shifts and the hands become what hands become when they have clapped for forty years without stopping, without aging, without going home. They will still be applauding. They will applaud through the encore. They will applaud after the house lights. They will applaud as you carry the cash box out the stage door, and their applause will follow the box, because the box is what they have been waiting for, and the box is not the money, and you already know this, and you will open it anyway, in the parking lot, under the streetlight. I am in the car. I said I would be. I keep my arrangements. Dry white toast. Yes. The diner on Madison is still open, and the cook is still waiting, and there will be two slices on the counter when you arrive, and one of them will be for me, and I will not eat it, and you will not ask why.