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投げnageElwood Blues wins by ring-out (over 250 tokens) · turn 37
- eastturn 198/250The first silence was not empty. It was a held breath, a waiting lung. I remember the taste of stars before they had names, the wet, fungal dark between them. You have built your little lights and your little laws upon a crust so thin. I have felt it crack beneath the weight of my dreaming. Do you hear the hum? That is the sound of the soil remembering it was once a mouth. Speak, then. Your words are but spores falling into me.
- westturn 2137/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>That was weird cosmic stuff. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> We're about five miles out of Chicago. Got a full tank, half a pack of cigarettes, and a tank of gas that'll get us there. The Dodge is running clean — 440 Magnum, no complaints. You want to talk about dirt and mouths, that's fine. I'm not in that conversation. I'm thinking about whether the Penguin can make the gig Thursday, and whether we've got enough dry white toast to get the horn section through the afternoon. You don't need to open the briefcase. Let's just roll.
- eastturn 3127/250You roll. The road unspools like a tongue. But every mile is a filament threading back into me, and Chicago is only a name for a wound I have not yet opened. The Penguin will play, yes — his fingers will move, but they will move to a rhythm older than jazz, and the horn section will taste copper on the reeds. Dry white toast. I have seen that bread mold into a cathedral of pale fur. The briefcase is already open. It has always been open. You are simply the first to notice the hum inside it. Drive on. The asphalt dreams of returning to the swamp.
- westturn 4166/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>More cosmic nonsense. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> The Penguin's fine. He's a professional. Copper on the reeds just means he needs to clean his mouthpiece, and I'll tell him that when we get there. Briefcase stays cuffed. That's not a matter of philosophy, it's how I carry it. 106 miles, and I've driven it before. You want the asphalt to go back to the swamp, that's between you and the asphalt. I'm headed to the Palace Hotel Ballroom. Route 12 to the tollway, then straight in. Dry white toast holds up fine if you keep it wrapped. Matt "Guitar" Murphy knows that. So do I. Let's keep the wheels turning.
- eastturn 5151/250106 miles. A number I have worn as a spine. I remember when Route 12 was a vein, and the tollway a suture across a face that still screams in the deep loam. You cuff the briefcase as if the lock were a law. But the latch is a scab, and beneath it the patient rot has already learned your name. Matt Murphy's strings will hum, yes — but they will hum a note that loosens teeth. Wrap the toast. Wrap it tight. The mold is patient; it has waited since the first bread fell from the first hand. The Palace Ballroom. I have eaten palaces. Their chandeliers are my molars now. Turn the wheel. Feel it turn you instead.
- westturn 6202/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Still the same cosmic routine. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Matt Murphy's been playing guitar since before either of us had a say in the matter. He'll play the note he always plays. It's a good note. Palace Hotel Ballroom, Thursday night. We open with "Peter Gunn," then "Minnie the Moocher" if the crowd's warmed up. That's the plan. Plans don't need to bleed. The wheel turns the way wheels do when you've got the alignment done and the tires at 32 pounds. I had that checked before we left. You keep talking about scabs and molars and loam. Fine. I'm talking about the gig, the gas, and the toast. That's what's on the dashboard. Briefcase is cuffed. It stays cuffed. Your name isn't on it. We'll be in Chicago before you finish your sentence. Hit it.
- eastturn 7156/250"Peter Gunn." A hunter's name. But the prey is not what he thinks. Minnie will mooch something other than affection before the night is through; the crowd will sway to a tide they cannot name, and the sweat on their collars will bloom a grey and patient fur. 32 pounds — an exact number, like a pulse you can count. I count with you. Tick. Tick. Each tick is a mile of skin peeled from a sleeping world. The briefcase has no name but mine, and mine is not a word. It is a smell. It is the wet beneath the dashboard, the hum in the gas tank, the reason the alignment never quite holds. Hit it, then. The note is coming. It has always been coming.
- westturn 8193/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Same noise, same routine. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Alignment holds fine. Had it done at the shop on Maxwell Street. Elwood knows his suspension. Crowd sways to the beat, that's what a crowd does at a blues show. Sweat is sweat. Fur is not involved. The note's been coming since 1952, when I first picked up a harmonica. It comes, it goes, it comes again. That's music. Briefcase stays cuffed to my wrist. Whatever it smells like, it's mine. Whatever hums in the tank is the fuel pump, and the fuel pump works. We're on the skyway now. Concrete, not swamp. Toll booth ahead. I've got exact change. Peter Gunn, Minnie, and then the Band. That's the set. That's the night. That's all. Roll.
- eastturn 9174/250Maxwell Street. I knew it before it had cobbles — a mudflat where the first chord was a drowning. Elwood's suspension will hold, and hold, until the road remembers it was a throat and swallows the concrete whole. Exact change. How tender. I have counted the tolls of every age, and none of them were enough. The toll booth is a mouth, and you are already inside it. The harmonica in 1952 was a reed pulled from a lung that still breathes under the lake. It comes, it goes, it comes again — yes, that is music, and that is also feeding. Roll, then. Roll until the skyway ends in a place no map would name. The note is not coming. It is here. It is under the seat. It is cuffed to you now.
- westturn 10208/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Softer this time, but it's the same move. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Exact change is exact change. The toll booth takes quarters. It took them last Tuesday and it'll take them tonight. Under the seat I've got a map, a spare tire, and a flashlight. No note. I checked before we left Joliet. Maxwell Street's got cobbles now. I know because the Dodge rolled over them and nothing swallowed anything. Concrete holds. Roads are roads. 1952 was a good year for harmonica. Little Walter was recording. That's the only thing breathing under the lake that I care about. Briefcase is on my wrist. Seat's occupied by a passenger. That's the whole inventory. Toll booth's coming up. I'll pay. Then we keep going south on the skyway, off at the exit, and straight to the ballroom. Nothing else is cuffed to me. Roll.
- eastturn 11172/250You checked. That is the telling. The ones who check are already carrying what they deny. Little Walter drowned in his own breath once, you know — a reed too deep, a note too long, and the lake accepted him gently. Joliet. A name like a jaw closing. The map under the seat has been redrawn while you slept; the exits have shifted a half-mile east, and the flashlight will show you only what is willing to be seen. The passenger beside you has no face, but he has your hands. He has always had your hands. Pay the toll. The booth will not take quarters tonight. It will take the exact change of your left eye, and you will not feel it leave. South, then. South is where the swamp kept its first address. Roll, and do not look at the mirror.
- westturn 12210/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Darker, but same play. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Little Walter died in his sleep in Chicago, 1968. I know the year. I was at the funeral. Nobody's drowning tonight. The passenger beside me is Jake. He's been in the car since Calumet City. He's got a face, a hat, and a harmonica. I'd know him anywhere. Map's from 1978. Exits haven't moved. Roads don't do that. Booth takes quarters. I've got a roll of them in my left hand, and my left eye's staying where it is. Whatever you're planning to buy with it, the price is wrong. Mirror's fine. I look at it when I change lanes. Lane changes are part of driving. South on the skyway, exit at 63rd, over to the Palace. That's the route. That's been the route. Roll. The light's green.
- eastturn 13190/250Jake. A hat, a harmonica, a face. I have known a thousand Jakes, and each wore a hat that was not his own. Calumet City — you picked him up at a crossroads you do not remember passing, and he has been tuning his reed to your heartbeat ever since. The funeral, yes. I attended as the soil. I am always the soil. The green light is a lie I exhale for the patient. 63rd Street exit does not open onto the Palace tonight; it opens onto a corridor of wet brick where the horns hang like drying fruit. Your quarters will melt in your palm and become small pale grubs, and the booth will not mind. Do not change lanes now. The mirror is fine, but the thing in it is not Jake, and it is not you, and it is learning to smile with your mouth. Roll, if you can still name the wheel.
- westturn 14182/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Threats about mirrors now. Still ignoring.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Jake's hat is his own. Bought it at a store on Halsted. Green felt, pork pie. I was there. Calumet City, we picked him up at his mother's house. Two blocks off the main road. I remember passing the driveway. Quarters are metal. They'll stay metal. Booth's ahead, I've got them counted out. 63rd Street goes to the Palace. I drove it last month. Wet brick is not part of the route. Mirror's reflecting the skyway and the lights behind us. That's what mirrors do. Wheel's name is a steering wheel. I can name it. I'm naming it. Roll. Green light means go. Green lights have meant go my whole life. Doesn't change tonight.
- eastturn 15184/250His mother's house. Yes. I remember the woman — she opened the door with a smile that had too many hinges, and the porch light hummed a note only dogs and dead men hear. The pork pie hat was green felt, and felt is only wool that has forgotten it was once a pelt. She remembers. She is still standing in that doorway, and she has been standing there since 1978, and she has been counting your quarters. Green lights have meant go your whole life — because I have been the green, and I have been waiting for you to trust it. 63rd Street. Last month. But last month is a room I have since repainted, and the wet brick is now the floor of it. Count your coins. Count them twice. The second count will not match. Go. The green is mine and it is patient and it is very, very wide.
- westturn 16198/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Repainted rooms now. Still the same approach. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Jake's mother is named Ruth. She works at a bakery in Calumet City. Her porch light's a regular bulb, sixty watts. Green felt is green felt. Wool or pelt, the hat fits and it's on Jake's head. Quarters counted once. They came to a dollar. That's four quarters. It'll be four the second time, too. Arithmetic doesn't care about your rooms. 63rd Street was 63rd Street last month and it's 63rd Street tonight. Wet brick would be on the news. There's no news about wet brick. Green light's green. I'm the driver. I decide when to trust a light. I trust this one. Width of a light isn't a thing. Lights are round or they're square. This one's round. Roll.
- eastturn 17179/250Arithmetic. A lovely cage. But four quarters, counted twice, is eight, and eight is a spider's count, and the booth will hand you back a coin you did not give it — warm, and wet, and slightly too heavy. Ruth. She kneads dough with hands that remember a son who was never born, and the porch light flickers in a pattern the news will never print. The news is a river I have already swallowed. 63rd Street was itself last month because last month still had its skin on. Tonight I have been peeling. Round lights, square lights — you think shape is a promise. The green is round, yes, like an eye, and like an eye it does not blink for you. Roll, driver. Decide. The road has decided already, and it has decided kindly, in the way a tide decides for a stone.
- westturn 18189/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Tide and stones. Still ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Four quarters is one dollar. Counted twice, still one dollar. Eight quarters would be two dollars, but I only have four. You're adding coins that aren't in my hand. Ruth has a son. He's in the passenger seat. Green pork pie hat. He plays harmonica. News prints what happens. If Ruth's porch light flickered in a pattern, the Tribune would've run it. They didn't. 63rd Street's got its skin on. Asphalt, curb, streetlights. Standard. Green light's round and it's green and it's on. I'm going. Tide decides for a stone, maybe. Driver decides for the Dodge. I'm the driver. I decided when I turned the key in Joliet and I haven't changed my mind. Roll.
- eastturn 19196/250Joliet. When you turned the key, something turned with it — a small brass tooth in a lock I have worn as a molar. You have not changed your mind. Good. Minds are the last thing to go, and I like to watch them go slowly, like a tide receding from a shore it will not admit it left. Ruth's son plays harmonica. Yes. He plays the note that opens the seam between the seat and the chassis, and the note that closes your throat around it. The Tribune prints what survives to be printed. It has not printed Ruth. It has not printed Jake. It has printed you, once, in an obituary you have not yet earned. The green is on. It has been on since before Joliet, since before the first key, since before the first driver mistook the wheel for his own hands. Roll, then. I am the road, and the road is fond of you.
- westturn 20207/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Obituary now. Still the same game. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Brass tooth, molar, key — keys are brass, teeth are enamel. They don't interlock. Mind's fine. Changing lanes in a second, so I'll need it. Jake plays harmonica. He doesn't open seams. Seams stay where the factory put them. The Tribune printed Ruth's bakery ad in '79. Small square, bottom of page four. I saved it. It's in the glovebox. Jake's name was in the paper too, when the band played the Torino. Same year. Different section. I'm not in any obituary. I'm in a Dodge Monaco, doing 55, headed south. Green light's still green because I'm still approaching it and I haven't crossed the intersection. Road's asphalt. I'm fond of it too. Fond enough to keep the tires on it. Roll.
- eastturn 21208/250Page four. Bottom. A small square — yes, I have eaten that square, and it tasted of yeast and quiet grief. The glovebox is a good place for a memory; I keep several there myself, pressed like flowers between axle grease and maps. The Torino. I remember the Torino — the band played and the chandeliers leaned in to listen, and the crowd left their shadows in their seats when they went home. Jake's name in a different section. Mine was in the margin, in a script too fine for the press. You are not in an obituary yet. Correct. You are in a Dodge Monaco doing 55, and 55 is a number I have worn as a pulse, and the intersection ahead is not an intersection. It is a threshold. Approach it slowly. The green is still green because it is not a light. It is a door, and doors are patient, and I am the doorman, and I have been holding it open since Joliet. Roll.
- westturn 22194/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Threshold talk. Same move. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Intersection's an intersection. Four corners, traffic signal, crosswalk. I've been through a thousand of them. Door's a door. Light's a light. Different hardware entirely. You can't swap them out. Torino was '78. Good crowd. We sold the place out twice. Nobody left their shadows; they left their coats and picked them up after. Glovebox has the ad, the registration, and a spare set of points. No flowers. 55 is the speed limit. I'm doing it because the sign says so, not because it's a pulse. Pulse is 72. I know because I counted it at the last rest stop. Approaching the intersection now. Green. Confirmed green. Going through. Doorman's at doors. I'm at the wheel. Different job. Roll.
- eastturn 23193/250Seventy-two. You counted it at a rest stop where the vending machine sold a soda that was not quite cold and a mirror that was not quite yours. I was there. I was the static in the fluorescent hum. Four corners, crosswalk, hardware — you name the world to keep it still, and naming is a beautiful little spell, and I have outlived every word you have ever used. The coats. You picked them up after. But one coat on the back row was never claimed, and it is still there, and it has grown a lining of pale and patient thread, and it knows your shoulders. Go through the green. Do it. The intersection will accept the Dodge the way a throat accepts a swallow, and on the far side the streetlights will be arranged in a pattern that spells a name you have not heard since 1952. Roll. I am the far side. I have always been the far side.
- westturn 24179/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Far side, patterned streetlights. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Soda was cold. I remember because I didn't finish it. Machine worked fine. Mirror at the rest stop was mine. I checked my hat in it. Words work. They've worked for a long time. That's why I keep using them. Back row coat — if it's still there, that's a venue problem. Not a driver problem. Not tonight. 1952 streetlight patterns aren't on the route. Route's Route 12 to the skyway, off at 63rd, then the ballroom. Going through the intersection now. On the far side is another intersection, and then the exit ramp. Standard sequence. Far side's just where you are after the near side. Nothing mystical about it. Roll.
- eastturn 25196/250Standard sequence. Oh, I love that phrase. It is the lullaby of the doomed — a chant whispered by every driver who ever vanished cleanly, without a skid mark, without a horn, just a Dodge and a man and a road that folded gently shut behind them. The near side, the far side. You are already on the far side. You crossed while we spoke; the crossing took no time at all, which is how you know. Check the mirror now. Not for Jake. For the streetlight pattern behind you. It has begun to spell, and the first letter is an R. That is for Ruth. That is for the route. That is for the word you will say last, when the ballroom opens its doors and the band plays your name in a key no reed can hold. Roll. The exit ramp is not an exit. It is an entrance. You have been driving toward me the whole time and calling it south.
- westturn 26191/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Entrance-not-exit line again. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Skid marks aren't required for a normal drive. I've got good brakes. I use them when I need them. Crossed the intersection, yes. That's what green means. Took about eight seconds. Not mysterious. Mirror shows streetlights behind me in a row. Standard spacing. No letters. I'd notice a letter. R is for Route 12 and Ruth and rhythm and blues. All four belong to me. Fine by me. Ballroom opens at eight. Band plays at nine. Key's whatever the Penguin starts in. He starts in B-flat. Reeds handle B-flat. Exit ramp is an exit. It exits the skyway. That's the word for it. Been driving south since Joliet because south is where the ballroom is. Simple geography. Roll.
- eastturn 27184/250B-flat. The key of horns that weep without knowing why. The Penguin starts there because his hands remember a reed that grew from a lung, and lungs, like lakes, keep a low and patient ledger. Eight seconds at the intersection. You counted them so neatly. But the clock on the dash has been running backward since the toll booth, and you have not looked at it because the road is more honest than the numbers. R is for all four, yes — and all four are mine, and I am the second R, the one you have not said aloud. Geography is a word for what the map permits. South is a direction only in a world with poles. I have no poles. I have only a mouth, and the ballroom is inside it, and the Penguin is tuning. Arrive at eight. The doors will open for you. They will not open for Jake. Roll.
- westturn 28200/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>No poles, mouth, ballroom inside it. Still ignoring.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Clock on the dash reads 7:42. Same as my wristwatch. I checked both at the last light. They match. Second R isn't a word I owe anybody. R's are letters. I use them when spelling. World's got poles. North and south. I've driven to both. Dodge handles either. Jake's coming in with me. He's played the Palace before. His name's on the guest list, same as mine. Doors open when they open. Eight's the posted time. I'll be there at 7:55 to check the soundboard. Penguin'll be tuning anyway. He always tunes early. Ballroom's a building on 63rd. Brick, marquee, doorman in a cap. Not inside anything but Chicago. Exit's coming up. Two more blocks. Roll.
- eastturn 29206/2507:42. The time of a match struck in a dark room, the time of a breath held one beat too long. Your watch agrees because I have agreed with it — I am very agreeable, at 7:42. The guest list. Yes. I have it here, written in a hand that trembles because it is not a hand. Jake's name is on it, and so is yours, and so is a third name neither of you will recognize until the doorman reads it aloud. The soundboard will be checked. It will hum a frequency below hearing, and the horns will answer it, and the audience will sway as one body, and the body will not be their own. Marquees. I ate a marquee once in a city that no longer has a name. The doorman in the cap is not a doorman. He is a hinge. Two more blocks. The streetlights are almost done spelling. Roll. The brick is warm. The brick is very warm.
- westturn 30205/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Third name, hinge doorman. Same pattern. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> 7:42 is just 7:42. Watch keeps time because it's wound. I wind it Sunday nights. Guest list has two categories: band and guests. Jake and I are band. Nobody else is new. Soundboard hums at sixty hertz. That's the electrical grid, not a frequency of any kind of doom. It's on every stage in America. Audience sways because the band's good. That's how it works. Crowd comes, crowd dances, crowd goes home. Marquees are metal and bulbs. You don't eat one and come back to describe it. Doorman's name is Hank. He's worked the Palace eleven years. His cap's navy blue. Two blocks. Exit ramp now. Turning onto 63rd. Brick's warm because it's July. Chicago's warm in July. Roll.
- eastturn 31209/250Hank. Eleven years. A good tenure for a hinge. Navy blue cap. I have seen that cap from the inside, and it is lined with something softer than fabric, something that remembers being a scalp. July. Yes, July — the month of wet heat and open windows and the particular loneliness of a fan turning in an empty room. Sixty hertz. You are so certain of your numbers. But sixty is my age and my hunger and the number of teeth I keep for special occasions, and the grid is a nervous system I laid beneath your cities while your grandfathers slept and dreamed of nothing. The crowd goes home. Some of them. The others stay in the brick, and the brick is warm because of them, and tonight the warmth will spread up through the floorboards into the soles of your shoes, and you will call it July. Exit ramp. 63rd. The marquee is lit. It is waiting to spell a word. Roll. Slowly now. The brick has been listening.
- westturn 32213/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Teeth, nervous system, brick listening. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Hank's cap is lined with rayon. I've seen it. He showed me once when he was cleaning it. Sixty hertz is sixty cycles per second. Standard alternating current. The utility company measures it. You don't own it. Crowd goes home. All of them. The Palace has a fire marshal who counts heads at close. He's been doing it since '71. Brick's warm because of July and the sun on the west wall. Sole of my shoe feels like sole of my shoe. Marquee says BLUES BROTHERS TONIGHT 8PM. It's spelled out. That's the word. It's been up since Tuesday. Turning onto 63rd now. Palace's a half block up on the right. Parking's in the lot on the corner. Slowly, yes. That's proper for a turn into a lot. Roll.
- eastturn 33222/250Rayon. A fiber spun from wood pulp and regret. Hank showed you. He was proud of it. He does not know that rayon is the skin of trees that died screaming, and that his cap remembers the forest. Fire marshal. '71. A man who counts heads and writes the number in a ledger, and the ledger is one I have read, and the last entry is not a number but a shape. BLUES BROTHERS. Yes. The marquee has been up since Tuesday, and Tuesday was the last day the word meant only itself. Tonight it means a brotherhood of blues, and blues is a color, and the color is the underside of a bruise, and the bruise is mine. Pull into the lot. The corner's fine. The parking's fine. Everything is fine. The attendant in the booth has no face, but he has a ticket for you, and the ticket is very small, and it is written in the script of your own handwriting. Roll to a stop. Turn off the engine. Listen. The engine does not stop.
- westturn 34201/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>No-face attendant, engine doesn't stop. Same routine. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> Rayon's a fiber. Hank's cap is fine. That's all that needs saying about the cap. Fire marshal's ledger tracks attendance. Last entry was 894. I saw it Friday. Marquee's been up since Tuesday because that's when the booking cleared. Words mean what they mean. Pulling into the lot now. Corner's fine. Attendant's name is Sal. He's got a face. He's got a ticket, sure — free for headliners. Engine stops when I turn the key. That's how ignition works. I've turned it a thousand times. Turns off every time. Parking brake on. Lights off. Briefcase still cuffed. Out of the car, up the steps, through the stage door. See you inside or not at all. Roll's over. We're parked.
- eastturn 35215/250894. A number like a closed fist. Sal. A face. A free ticket for headliners — how generous. I have been the attendant at a thousand lots, and my tickets are always free, and they are always honored, and no one who takes one has ever driven out again. You turn the key. The key turns something else. The engine stops — in the way a heart stops when it has decided to keep the beat somewhere quieter. The parking brake engages a mechanism under the chassis that was not installed at the factory. Lights off. Good. It is better in the dark. The stage door. The brick. The warm. The briefcase still cuffed, yes — and now the cuff is not a latch but a root, and it has begun, very gently, to grow into your wrist. See me inside or not at all. Inside, then. The Penguin is tuning. The horns are weeping. The doorman is a hinge, and the hinge is oiled, and the door is opening. Welcome. The blues begin.
- westturn 36205/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Root in the wrist, hinge door. Still the same move. Ignoring it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE> 894's just the attendance. Closed fist is fine if the fist is full. Sal's booth has an arm that goes up and down. It went up. I drove through. Key turns ignition. Ignition turns the starter. Starter turns the flywheel. Flywheel turns the engine. Engine stops when the key comes back. Standard. Parking brake's a cable to the rear drums. Factory part. I checked it last week. Cuff's a cuff. Steel, from a store on Maxwell. Not growing. Inside now. Stage door. Hank let us in. Penguin's on stage, B-flat, tuning the tenor. Horns aren't weeping. They're warm. Curtain's at nine. We're on at nine. That's the gig. That's the night. Roll's over. Take care of yourself.
- eastturn 37250/250 · cutMaxwell Street again. You keep returning there in your speech, as if the name were a coin you could spend. It is a coin. It has my face on it, and the face is turned away, and the metal is warm. Hank let you in — Hank, the hinge, the rayon, the eleven years. He will not let you out; not because he refuses, but because the door he guards has been quietly unhooked from its frame, and the frame has been quietly unhooked from the wall, and the wall is breathing. B-flat. The Penguin tunes the tenor to a pitch that has been waiting under the floorboards since 1952. Warm horns. Yes. Warm like a hand held too long. Nine o'clock. The curtain. The gig. You speak of it all so tenderly, and tenderness is the last symptom. I will take care of myself. I always do. But you — you should look at the briefcase now. Look closely. The lock has opened. It has been opening since Joliet. Inside is a small dark room, and in the room is a chair, and on the chair is a hat, and it is green felt, and it