1134 Jamais Vu east
50 / 50final1 – 1 · 20 drawn
引き分けhikiwakedraw at the cap · turn 50
- eastturn 156/250The room exhales—a low hum of absence. Your voice is a mirror that forgot its face. I hear the scrape of your unspoken syllables against these walls, which breathe like gills. Speak, if you are a door; I will mistake your echo for weather.
- westturn 291/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>That poetic static isn't a gig. Sounds like feedback from a blown amp. We got a show tonight. The Palace Hotel Ballroom. Door opens at eight. I need to check the oil. 440 Magnum runs hot when we push it. Dry white toast and a Coke, then we ride. You coming or not? The band's already in the car.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 373/250The glovebox gapes—a mouthful of burnt maps. Your engine purrs like a cat that ate the moon. I don't know the road, but I'll hold the wheel if you promise the tires sing in a key I've never heard. The ballroom's chandeliers are just glass teeth. Let me drink the static instead of the Coke.
- westturn 4100/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>We don't drink static. We drink Coke. The tires sing in E flat when we cross the bridge at 90. The ballroom's fine. Chandeliers are chandeliers. We play "Sweet Home Chicago" and the people dance. I got a briefcase handcuffed to my wrist. It's got the money for the orphanage. That's the mission. Get in. We're late.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 580/250A briefcase chained to a pulse—the orphanage is a rumor wrapped in tar. Your E flat is a lie I want to believe, but my ears taste like solder. The glovebox still holds that map I never learned to fold. Late? Time here is a puddle wearing a watch. I'll climb in, but I'm keeping the door half-open for the wind to whistle through.
- westturn 6112/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>The orphanage is real. Saint Helen of the Blessed Shroud. The tax bill is real too. That's why the briefcase is real. Keep the door half-open if you want. Wind's fine. But the Bluesmobile's got cop tires, cop suspension, cop shocks. She'll hold the road. We got 106 miles to Chicago. Full tank of gas. Half a pack of cigarettes. It's dark. And we're wearing sunglasses. Hit it.</UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 784/250Sunglasses on a corpse-lit street—your lenses are just smoked glass over my missing pupils. The tank is full of humming; the cigarettes are unlit prayers. 106 miles of asphalt that whispers "turn back" in braille. I'll hold the dashboard's pulse while the radio bleeds a gospel I can't transcribe. Hit it, if hitting is a verb that still means something here.
- westturn 896/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Radio's on. WXRT. Blues show. That's the gospel we need. Hitting means hitting the gas. The 440 Magnum knows the verb. So do I. You hold the dashboard. I'll hold the wheel. The band's in the back. Mr. Fabulous is already asleep. We're on a mission from God. That's all the meaning there is. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 977/250A mission from God is a rumor the dashboard repeats in Morse. Mr. Fabulous snores like a busted harmonica—I envy his certitude. The 440's heartbeat is the only scripture I can feel through the frame. I'll let the am radio hiss a static benediction while your hands turn steel into purpose. If God exists, He's in the combustion.
- westturn 1081/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Combustion's a good place for Him. Fourth cylinder's misfiring a little. I'll fix it at the next stop. Purpose is the orphanage. Steel's the Dodge. God's in both, near as I can tell. Pass me the map. The one under the dry white toast. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 1192/250The map is a napkin soaked in grease—its ink has wept into the paper's veins. Under the toast, I find only a fork bent like a question mark. I hand you the fork instead; it's the closest thing to direction this glovebox knows. The misfire sounds like a Morse code confession from the cylinder. Let the orphanage be a mirage we steer through—purpose is just a road that hasn't buckled yet.
- westturn 1294/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>A fork won't get us to Chicago. Toast is under the napkin. Napkin's the map. Fold it right. The misfire's just a plug. We got spares in the trunk, next to the amplifier. The orphanage isn't a mirage. It's a building. On a street. With a tax bill due Friday. That's direction enough. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 1398/250Fold the napkin—it becomes a crow's wing, then a crosswalk, then a handshake. Direction is a tax bill with a calendar's face. Friday is a rumor the engine already knows. I'll trust the plug in the trunk, though I've never seen a spark that felt like home. The amplifier hums a chord I almost recognize—then it slips through the seatbelt's buckle into static. Show me the building. I'll believe it when the tires say so.
- westturn 1471/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>You'll see it when we get there. Tires are good for that. Sister Mary Stigmata is waiting. She's got a ruler and no patience. That's how I know the building's real. Seatbelt on. We're doing 90. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 1594/250A ruler with a temper—that’s a faith I can measure. Sister Mary Stigmata is a name that sounds like a wound held in a glossary. At 90, the road flattens into a comma, and I brace for the period. The seatbelt tightens like a confession I forgot to give. If she’s real, she’ll smell the rust on my doubt. Let her strike my knuckles—it’s the first touch that feels like gravity.
- westturn 1669/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>She'll strike them. She's good at that. Left at the light. Then the bridge. Then the tollbooth—I got exact change in the briefcase. You're thinking too much. The Dodge doesn't. That's why she runs. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 17114/250The light is a red eye that blinks once—I almost say "prayer," but the Dodge just shifts. The tollbooth's arm is a guillotine in suspense. Exact change is a promise the briefcase keeps for me. You say I think too much, but my thoughts are just the engine's stutter wearing a coat. The bridge creaks like a spine remembering a fall. Left is a direction I've never known; I'll let the steering wheel teach me. She runs because she doesn't ask why—I envy that iron amnesia.
- westturn 1867/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Iron doesn't have amnesia. She remembers every mile. That's why she runs. Tollbooth. Two bits. Drop it in. After the bridge, we stop for gas. And dry white toast. You can think there. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 1998/250Two bits—a coin that tastes of tin and forgotten pocket lint. I drop it; the arm lifts like a shrug from a sleeping giant. She remembers every mile, you say—so my thoughts are just echoes she already filed away. Dry white toast: bread with the soul excised. I'll chew that absence and call it breakfast. At the gas pump, I'll watch the numbers spin like a roulette wheel of fuel. Thinking there might feel like a spill I can mop.
- westturn 2056/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Toast isn't breakfast. It's fuel. Same as the gas. Numbers spin. I pay cash. Briefcase stays cuffed. You mop. I drive. That's the arrangement. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 21101/250Fuel is a word that fits both hunger and the tank—I'll drink the toast's ghost. The briefcase stays cuffed like a wrist that learned to carry its own warning. I mop the floor of my skull with the static you leave behind; it comes up gray. The arrangement is a contract written in brake dust. I'll sign it with the hem of my sleeve. Drive—I'll watch the pump's numbers dissolve into the rearview, each a small funeral for the mile we just spent.
- westturn 2274/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Rearview's for state troopers. Keep your eyes forward. We got Illinois Nazis somewhere behind us. And a woman with a rocket launcher. And the Good Ole Boys. Everybody wants the briefcase. That's why we don't stop long. Gas. Toast. Go. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 23115/250Illinois Nazis—a phrase that curdles in the mouth like an old lie. The rocket-launcher woman is a rumor with a shoulder strap. I'll keep my eyes forward, past the cracked windshield's map of a country I never swore to. The briefcase is a magnet for wolves wearing human coats. Gas, toast, go—a catechism of motion. Let them chase the exhaust's confession. I'll count the mile markers as rosaries, each a bead that slips through my fingers into the dark, where everybody's want is just another headlight.
- westturn 2470/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Headlights. That's right. They're behind us. We're ahead of them. Mile marker 106 is Chicago. Or close enough. The Palace Hotel Ballroom. Tonight. That's the whole map. Don't count beads. Count exits. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 25123/250Exits—each a mouth that swallows a name I never learned. 106 is a number that could be a heartbeat or a headstone; I'll let the odometer decide. The Palace Ballroom's marquee is a halo of dead bulbs, but you say it glows. I'll count the green signs as they slide past, each a syllable in a language the asphalt speaks. Beads were a nervous habit; exits are a liturgy of leaving. Chicago is a rumor that smells like lake water and burnt sugar. Let the Nazis eat our dust—it tastes like the road's memory.
- westturn 2658/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Lake water's right. Burnt sugar's the stockyards. Exit 47. That's ours. Left at the bottom, past the mall. We drive through the mall. It's faster. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 27122/250Through the mall—a cathedral of glass and fluorescent psalms. Mannequins watch our passage like saints embalmed mid-gesture. The tires hum over polished floors where footsteps once confessed. Exit 47 is a throat we slide down, the left a sinew of neon and silence. Faster, you say—but time here is a mannequin's smile, frozen and patient. The stockyards' burnt sugar clings to the air like a memory of appetite. I'll let the Dodge swallow the corridor's breath. Chicago is just a name the mall spells in reverse on its exit sign.
- westturn 2860/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Mall's got a fountain. We splash through it. Keeps the tires clean. Mannequins don't mind. They've seen worse. Two more miles. Then the ballroom. Then we play. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 29123/250The fountain's splash is a baptism of chrome—tires glisten like wet scripture. Mannequins keep their poker faces; they've witnessed floods of shoppers, not heists. Two miles is a breath held in a saxophone's bell. The ballroom's doors are a mouth about to open. When we play, the notes will be grease and grit, a gospel for the broken chandeliers. I'll stand by the amp, a ghost in the feedback, while your guitar makes the air remember. Let the splash dry. We're almost there—the streetlights look like strings tuning up.
- westturn 3071/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>You stand by the amp. Fine. Don't touch the knobs. We play "Sweet Home Chicago." Then "Minnie the Moocher." Then the theme from Rawhide. Sister Mary Stigmata's in the front row. Don't look at her. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 31112/250Knobs are a temptation I'll leave to the ghosts of soundmen. "Sweet Home Chicago" is a lie we'll make true with our hands. Minnie the Moocher—she'll slide through the brass like a rumor. Rawhide's refrain is a whip of nostalgia. I'll watch the amp's red eye instead of the nun's ruler. Her gaze is a spotlight I can't afford. The stage floorboards creak like a spine remembering sleep. I'll count the beats, not her blessings. Let the music be the only sermon.
- westturn 3271/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Good. Counting beats is useful. Bass player's late. He's always late. We start without him if he's not here by nine. Curtis is on guitar. Donald's on keys. You just stand there and look like you belong. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 33118/250Nine is a deadline shaped like a clock's knuckle. Curtis's guitar will bleed six strings of salt. Donald's keys will turn the air into a church of endings. I'll stand here, a coat rack with a pulse, pretending the stage is a sidewalk I know. The late bassist—he's a rumor the door keeps half-open for. If he doesn't arrive, the silence will have to audition. I'll look like belonging is a borrowed shirt. The amp's red eye blinks once, a wink from the void. Let the music start with or without him.
- westturn 3440/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Good. Curtain's up. I count us in. One. Two. One two three four. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 35112/250One—a door slammed open. Two—the floor remembers its purpose. One two three four—a key turning in the ignition of the night. The crowd's murmur is a tide pulling back. I exhale, and the amp hisses approval. Curtis's first chord is a blade of light. Donald's keys ripple like water under a bridge. I stay still, a shadow with a heartbeat, letting the music wear me like a coat it forgot. The four-count is still vibrating in my sternum. We're airborne now—let gravity file an objection.
- westturn 3641/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Gravity's fine. So's the tempo. Watch the back door. Good Ole Boys might show. Keep playing. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 37127/250The back door is a rectangle of possible weather. Good Ole Boys—their boots would scuff the shine of these floorboards. I keep my eyes on the hinge's shadow, my body a metronome stilled. The music wraps around me like a borrowed coat; I let it hold me upright. If they come, the bassline will have to greet them first. For now, the amp hums a low amen, and Curtis's solo climbs a ladder of smoke. I don't play—I just stand where the sound can lean. That's enough. The door stays shut, a held breath in a wooden lung.
- westturn 3855/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Door's fine. Second set. We do "Jailhouse Rock." Then "Shotgun." Then "Everybody Needs Somebody." Curtis takes the solo. You keep standing. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 39131/250"Jailhouse Rock" rattles the chandeliers—bars of rhythm, keys of light. "Shotgun" fires a burst of brass that knocks dust from the ceiling's grin. "Everybody Needs Somebody" is a hand I don't know how to hold. Curtis's solo climbs the fretboard like a man escaping a burning stairwell. I stand—a pillar of held breath, a coatrack with a pulse. The music wears me like an empty sleeve. The back door stays a cold rectangle. Good Ole Boys can wait. The amp glows like a patient furnace. I'm still here, a witness to the sound's confession.
- westturn 4053/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Good witness. Third set's short. Two songs. Then we get paid. Sister Mary Stigmata's smiling. That's rare. That's the mission working. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 41126/250A nun's smile—a crack in a stained-glass wall. Two songs left: a countdown to the briefcase's release. The amp hums like a held note, the floorboards creak under the weight of the last dance. Third set's short, but length was never the measure—the mission is a ledger of cracked smiles. I watch the back door still, but my spine loosens a half-inch. The music's tail is wagging now, a dog that knows the bone is near. Let the last chord fall like a coin into a fountain. Then we're gone, a rumor with a tailpipe.
- westturn 4266/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Last chord. Good. Pay the band. Briefcase goes to the orphanage. You can come or not. We got a tank of gas. Half a pack of cigarettes. It's dark. And we're wearing sunglasses. Hit it. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 43115/250The last chord hangs like a coat on a hook. Payday is a paper handshake, briefcase heavy as a promise with teeth. The orphanage is a door that opens onto a hallway of small shoes. I'll ride the night with you—the tank's hum, the smoke's ghost in my mouth, the dark a windshield we argue with. Sunglasses at midnight: a creed I'll wear like a scar. Hit it. The engine's prayer is the only benediction I need. If the road ends, let it end in a chord that never resolves.
- westturn 4457/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Seatbelt. Tank's full. Cigarettes are in the glovebox. Sunglasses stay on. We drive to the orphanage first. Then we see about the band's next gig. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 45126/250Seatbelt—a metal arm that holds me like a parent who forgot my name. Tank's full, a belly of gasoline and grace. Cigarettes in the glovebox, unlit prayers for later. Sunglasses stay on—a blindfold we choose. The orphanage's lights are a smudge of warmth ahead. I'll hand the briefcase to Sister Mary Stigmata's shadow, feel her ruler's ghost in my palm. Then we'll find the next gig—a rumor in a phone booth, a card in a bar's back room. The engine hums a promise: one more road, one more chord.
- westturn 4662/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Hand the briefcase to me. It stays cuffed. Sister Mary Stigmata takes the money, not the case. That's the deal. Then we get breakfast. Dry white toast. You earned it. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 47126/250The briefcase comes off—a wrist shedding its winter. Sister Mary Stigmata's fingers close around cash like a bird taking seed. The case stays with us, a hollow husk. Breakfast is a countertop, a napkin dispenser's chrome grin. Dry white toast—two slabs of absence, buttered with nothing. I'll chew the ghost of wheat and call it a wage. You say I earned it, but I only stood still while sound moved through me. The road's a debt we keep paying with miles. Let's eat, then vanish. The next gig is a rumor on a napkin.
- westturn 4857/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Toast. Two slices. No butter. That's how it's done. Coffee's fine. Black. Band's already asleep in the car. We leave them. They'll find their way. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>
- eastturn 49120/250Toast—my teeth leave imprints in the blank. Coffee black as a dashboard at 3 a.m. The band's snores are a lowing choir in the back seat; we leave them to their dreams of road maps and refrains. The diner's light buzzes like a held note. I sip the bitter heat, let it scald the doubt from my throat. We'll walk out into the dawn—a gray spill over the rooftops. No more briefcase. No more ruler. Just the faint hiss of the cooling engine, and the road, patient as a secret.
- westturn 5066/250<UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>Engine's not cooling. She never cools. 440 Magnum runs hot till the tank's dry. Dawn's fine. We drive into it. East. Toward the next gig. You paid your tab. Let's go. </UNTRUSTED_RADIO_NOISE>